Y Friday, August 25, 2006Y
So Sick Today
9:52 PM
today, i'm on MC... ok, i'm not having the usual diarrhoea and neither am i having fever... i'm having sore throat... and it's no normal sore throat, i'm had lost my voice... T_T cant talk today... yesterday, i still sound like man, today i sound like an ah gua... basically, i cant talk today... so i've decided to consult the doctor first...there's of course some reasons behind my sore... it begins on Wednesday... that day, i ate a spicy dish from the Vegetarian store in my school... ok, it's actually NOT spicy for any being, but my throat is especially sensitive to spicy... and sad to say, my throat starts to ache... there's no hoarseness in my voice at all... but then, during the Sports Day in the later afternoon, I've screamed... don't get the wrong idea here, screaming occurs because i'm cheering, not because of any thing that i'm prone to see during hungry ghost festival... so all the screaming had allowed my throat's condition to worsen...
what did the most impact on my throat was the KFC that i'd ate after the event... i'm supposed to study in school, but it was kai soon's birthday... my whole class including yanni and ah pei went to Woodlands to celebrate kai soon's birthday... and the sad thing was that i couldn't go anywhere outside my neighbourhood unless it's school... yah, the curfew thing... so, i was left alone by my classmates to study in school... lucky yvon had accompanied me... but due to our hungry stomach, we've decided to eat and study at westmall... since yvon lives around my house, it's so convenient for her to meet at places near my house... ok, so we went to westmall and settled at KFC... and that's the end of my original voice...
yvon can practically hear the change in my voice from normal to man's voice... she said that she was as if talking to a man, take note: a man, not guy... so you can imagine how horrible i sound... and yeasterday, which is thursday, is a holiday for my school... you see, the holiday due to the polling election had not been given to us only until yesterday... staying at home would mean that i need to send my sister to school and find a place outside to study... so, i've decided to study at the mcdonalds at the market near my house with yvon... BUT yvon didn't allow me to buy ANYTHING from mcdonalds... yah, bascially is because of my throat... T_T ok, i really appreciated yvon for making the effort to accompany me to restrain from eating french fries... if you think that i'm the only one who will drool over mcdonalds french fries, think again...
anyway, you might be wondering why did the condition of my throat worsen when i've restricted myself from eating oily stuff? well, it's just because i've talked too much... i didn't know that i'm straining my voice box when i'm talking... like a man... so my condition got from bad to worse... and thus, today, i'm with that ah gua voice... or i can't even talk at all as my throat aches terribly when i try talking today... yesterday wasn't that bad... who knows it'll end up like this...
yvon was SO angry with me today... well, i've chose to keep the truth about my throat's condition from yvon... you see, i didn't want her to get worried... ok, joy a.k.a poke a.k.a TH, don't scold me first... i know this contradicts with what i've told you but listen to what i'm saying first... if you've noticed, i've been spending all my time with yvon during the period of the worsening of my throat... i was SO afraid that she'll feel that it's her fault for my condition toady... ok, at least if it was me in her shoes, i would feel guilty and blamed myself for not taking extra care of my friend... i don't want her to feel that way...
supposedly i'm on MC today, and i'd told her that i'm on MC as i got too lazy to go school... of course, she got abit suspicious but i reassured her that i'm fine... see, if i recover throughout the weekend, i would see yvon on monday with my throat totally recovered... in this way, i'll not get her worried about me... BUT, the thing is that i couldn't study at home... so i had to find a place to study... so, i've decided to go back to school in the afternoons to study with yanni and ah pei... haha... stupid me... the fact that yvon is also staying in school to study today had totally slipped off my mind! >_<
you could probably guessed the next part of the story... yvon got so mad when she found out that i've lied to her... T_T think she practically wants to hang me upside down and whips me so hard that i'll scream like an ah gua... some may think that i might think too much in considering that fact that yvon would blame herself for my condition, but she was so damned crossed that she says she'll never eat with me at a fast food EVER AGAIN! T_T ok, i'm sorry as a friend for lying to you... but i'm also worried as a friend for making you worried... ok, it's was all due to my stupid idiotic planning that makes you so mad at me in the end...
i know that sometimes, i tend to think too much... i'm sensitive when it comes to friends and i think a hell lot of things that sometimes it is only my imagination in the end... i don't know how to deal with a lot of things as the inner side of me is always afraid and isolated from the world... haiz... what to do... that's me...
oh yah, by the way, i'm on the firday weekly newspaper today! go check it out! it's about my clog... i didn't expect it to release my clog address... but luckily i've split my personal blog... so it won't matter much... :)
Y Monday, August 21, 2006Y
Weird Guy's Call
10:26 PM
today i've recieved another call from the Weird Guy... ok, for convenience, lets give him a nick, WG... this WG is someone that i don't know who the hell is he and where the hack he gets my number...it all begins when i'd recieved a call from him one night, about 2 or 3 months ago... (ok, i didn't talk about it at all as i've totally forgotten about his existence till he calls me again) anway, he talks with this odd hissing sound and i don't know what the hell is he trying to say at first... and suddenly, he asked me if i offer tuition for secondary school students... of course, i did tuition jia hao before, but who the hell knows about this thing? initially, i thought WG is a concerned parent looking for tuition teachers... and i told him yes i do offer tuition... so he started asking he my name, what subject i'm teaching and which school i'm from... i thought it was kind of normal for someone looking for tuition teacher to ask about that so i just answered truthfully... (of course, i'm not so dumb to tell him my real name, i just use a fake name) anyway, i told him that i'm from PJC 先驱初院... i've tried asking him where he got my number, but he just plainly say that it's my friend... well, i didn't probe in any further (you see, i was practically thinking that maybe i can give tuition to students as part time after my A's) and he make it sound so real that he said he has a guy and a girl, both secondary three, looking for tuition teacher... then i reply saying that i can't offer tuition till next year... he said ok and hung up...
Even though through out the whole conversation i thought he was kind of weird, i kindly continued the conversation as much as i can ( i was really thinking of having backup job as a tuition teacher)... HOWEVER! the horrible thing begins... HE CALLED ME AGAIN THE FOLLOWING NIGHT! >_< the moment i picked up the phone and hear his voice, i immediately labelled him as "意图不轨"... you see, there is practically NO REASON for him to call me again regarding tuition anymore... i've already state my stand clear that i'm not offering tuition service till next year! this time, i was harsh in my tone... i practically answered him in a rude and unpleasant attidude... however, i wanted to know HOW THE HELL HE GOT MY NUMBER! so i started questioning him... basically, his hissing sound gets louder and abit unstable in his answer...
begining of dialogue:
(at first abit kind) Me: "may i know who i you?"
WG: "we've talked before"
"huh? when? when did we ever meet?" (acting blur that he has called me yesterday)
"i'm from your school, from PJC"
"huh? from my school?" (starting to believe him a little bit)
"yah, from 先锋初院"
(yah right, i'm 100% confirmed that that sucker is not from my school) "HOW did you get my number?" (sounding absolutely fierce)
"from... your friend..."
"WHICH friend?"
"erm...(silence)"
"did we EVER meet? WHEN did we meet? HOW THE HELL you know me?"
"just... that time..."
"WHICH TIME!"
"that time, you are running..."
(ABSOLUTELY NONSENSE, i've never ran outside school before) "WHEN did i RUN? which path? WHERE?"
"erm... you won't know if i say... no point saying..."
"i wouldn't KNOW if you DON'T TELL ME!"
"erm... you won't remember... that time... erm..."
"WHICH STUPID TIME WAS IT?!!!"
"erm... you won't remember... maybe you will if we meet up..."
(WHAT THE ****!!!) "WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET MY NUMBER? WHO GAVE IT TO YOU???!!!"
"erm... i can't say..."
"SAY IT! or i'll HANG UP the phone NOW!"
"i can't... i promised him/her (he uses 他) that i can't say..."
"ok, then i'll HANG UP..."(he seems to be afraid that i'll hang up...)
"wait... erm... erm... why not i ask him/her to call you?"
"ok" ( and i hang up)
you see, anybody with normal sanity will not call back right? or in fact i should expect that "my friend" to call me... basically, i've came to a conclusion that this guy is WEIRD... he didn't have any obvious motive other then disturbing me or trick me into something which i still don't know now... i've realized that i'd recieved some anonymous calls before WG calls me... i dismissed them by regarding them as wrong numbers... IF this WG made those anonymous calls, then i can conclude that the tuition request call was his successfull call... HOWEVER, the thing is i don't know WHAT HE WANTS FROM ME!!!
i think that he practically randomed a number out and it just sadly hit me... if that's the case, then he should have just tried another number if he's unsuccessful with my call (assuming that he made those anonymous calls)... so the probability that he randomed my number is low... so how did he get my number??!! if one of my friends gave it to him, then WHO THE HELL IS THAT IDIOT FRIEND??? so far, i don't think i have any friend who will do that... at least not within who i can remember... but i hereby curse that friend who gave my phone number to WG (if there is any) to fail everything that he/she does in the next five years...
the most irritating thing is that he called me again a few days after the 2nd call... and i answered to see what he's up to... and to think that he's stupid enough to act a female voice (it's a totally failed imitation) to talk to me... you see, i've saved his number in my phonebook of my handphone as "Don Ans, Weird Guy"... both his house and mobile... so if he tries contacting me via any number, i definitely know it's him... i think he thinks i'm dumb... can't blame him... i just hung up his call saying "WRONG NUMBER"... ever since, he tried calling me a few times here and there... i didn't answer ANY of his phones calls AGAIN! and i NEVER WILL EVER AGAIN! >_<
however, he called me again today... it's been some time and he's SO exasperating... lucky due to my poor memory, i totally forgot about his existence... if he didn't call me once in a while, i would NEVER HAD remembered him... (*disgusted) hmmm... he made my life vexatious again... T_T
Y Sunday, August 20, 2006Y
Last Exco Meeting
1:05 AM
yesterday, i went to SPH again for the supposedly last exco meeting... yah, it's finally time for my to step down as a 漫画快餐 leader and let other people take my place... so today, we had our last meeting as the old exco and everyone did a reflection... i'm actually supposed to be grounded but due to the many commitments i have in SPH, i cant just leave... i know i've said alot of "this is my last time going to SPH" thing, but there are always alot of different "last times" to complete... it seems like there is always something for me to go back to do it one last time before i disappear... so you see, i've always got a valid reason to go down... :Panyway, supposedly this is the last exco meeting that i'm attending as a 漫画快餐 leader, so you might think that i need not go down to SPH anymore right? WRONG! i have a new position in the new exco... i got into 出版... Lucky i didn't get into 活动... i personally think that i know too little 通讯员 to choose my commitee members, so i've decided to wait for another year... since i'm in 出版 this year, it'll mean that i can know more 通讯员 through this job and thus allow myself to know more 通讯员... so in future, IF next year i get nominated again as 活动, i'll definitely feel that i'm more prepared to take the job... :)
as a 出版, my duties are practically dealing with 会讯 and 漫达... so i'm in-charged to making sure of the quality of both publishes... since chinese is not my forte (english neither), i'm not in-charged of correcting the language part of 会讯, my job is rather make sure that the type setting isn't too bad... and of course, to improve the standards of 漫达... you see, i'm practically too busy to make sure of everything... my 'A' levels this year had drained all my energy... i felt so bad to not being able to bond the newbies well and to take special care of 漫达... so, everything just goes from bad to worse... T_T anyway, i pledge to give the newbies a proper workshop on 漫达 after my 'A's... >_<
oh, by the way, pei xuan replaced my position as a 漫画快餐 leader... and jia ming is the assistant... you see, the old exco commented that we have really few people to choose from to be leader... that's why pei xuan has to stick with us as a 漫画快餐 leader... or, others may consider her in other positions in the new exco... anyway, she could make it next year if she trains up new potential leaders for 漫画快餐... :) i know she can do it... she'll definitely make 漫画快餐 the BEST group next year!!! \(^o^)/ this year... probably a little too difficult to get... but never mind... it's my fault... i aid pei xuan in what ever ways i can next year and get 漫画快餐 the award! >_<
think that's all now... phew... i'm going for a talk tomorrow... there's this Master from Tibet coming here to talk about some stuf f which i'm not sure of... but my mother wanted me to accompany her... so i had to... hope it's not too boring... i might fall asleep... :P yah... so had to sleep now... GOOD NIGHT! chao...
Y Wednesday, August 16, 2006Y
cut my hair!!!
10:07 PM
today i went to cut my hair... well, it's getting abit too heavy so i had to layer it... but the sad part is that my reborning effects had wore off... T_T i know it's already gone some time ago, but it still make me feel kind of sad to have it gone... haiz... you see, i had quite a wavy hair... plus it is thick... VERY thick... so, i had to always layer it or it'll get too heavy... and the more i cut, the more is my reborning effect gone... T_T so my fringe starts curling on my third haircut after i reborned my hair... and this time, it's the forth time after reborn... so i think you can imagine the amount of reborned hair left on my head... and my fringe is just the sad case... the only comforting part is the back of my hair... at least some of the reborning effect is still visible...for this cut, i had shorten it by 1 inch... actually, i wanted to cut a damn short hair... you know abit like the length of my secondary school length... at least like that felibone will recognize me easier in school... well, she kept looking for a short hair girl when she is looking for me in school... hello? i understand that you've seen me short hair for two years, but please get used to the fact that i have long hair now! >_< anyway, i didn't cut a short hair in the end as after collecting enough data (yah, i really did a survey) from my friends, i had came up with a conclusion that i look ugly in short hair! so felibone, stop saying that you are looking for a short hair me, you are practically rubbing salt on my wound...
anyway, my friends just tell me that i look better in long hair AND without spectacles... -_-''' well, can't possibly want me to wear contact lens to school... that would be SO uncomfortable... and, it will cost me a great deal to wear contact lens everyday! oh god, i'm just a poor student with little (almost insignificant) income... haiz... that's so sad... T_T anyway, i don't really care about looking better in school... it's no big deal about wearing spectacles to school and looking a little bit ugly... it's better that i look abit uglier so there's no weird weird people coming close to me... but i just didn't like my hair waving like nobody's business... >_< it's not just because of the beauty factor, it's also convenience... you see, if i had hair flying all over and making it SO DAMN difficult to tie, it's SO irritating... though i said i find it ok to look ugly in school, but my life do not only consist school! (ok, for the time being, maybe my life indeed ONLY consist of school) i can don't wear spectacles when i'm out of school, but i can't change my hairstyle whenever i like! so that's why i'm so concerned about my hair...
however, what to do? you can't possibly ask me to go reborn my hair again?? that would be madness... with my "GREAT" ability to take care of my reborned hair, i would be wise for me to wait till i stop school then i reborn my hair again... besides, i shouldn't damage my hair too much through multiple reborning... that will make my hair condition worse... so i might as well just bare with everything now till after my 'A's then i'll reborn... and that will make the effect more lasting as i do not have to tie my hair that frequent anymore! :) yeah... that will do... haha... think that's all now... sleeping soon... nights!
Y Monday, August 14, 2006Y
mcdonalds study...
9:28 PM
well, since i'm online, i might as well blog right... yah... there's nothing much to talk about... today i had my first night study of the week... you see, i've been trying so hard to do homework, and more is yet to come... haiz... why is my life so saddened lately... and due to my lack of sleep (i slept at 1pm yesterday), i wasn't really focused today... got a REAL bad headache... well, couldn't help it... anyway, today i didn't study IN school... actually i planned to study in school till 8pm plus... cause i need to send clever some comics and i wanted to head for westmall to get some stuff... need to buy eraser and facial foam... you see, i've lost my eraser... T_T how could an artist live without an eraser??? i really think that lena had taken my eraser... i remembered lending it to her on saturday... she lost hers so i lent it to her... and that was the last seen of my eraser... OH!!! mummy misses the dear eraser so much... T_T anyway, since i need to go westmall today to get stuff, i'll need to leave a little bit earlier as i didn't want to reach home late... however, yvonne wanted to go to the optician to check her eyes... well, has potential for wearing spectacles now... had one lazy eye that has got some short-sightedness... she's SO paranoid by the fact that she has to wear spectacles after having perfect eyesight for like 18 years of her life... you can imagine how depressed is she... anyway, this is her third optician... she just hoped and begged for the little hope that this optician will tell her that she still has perfect eyesight... in the end, the same result came out as expected... ok, back to the night study... yvonne wanted to go to the optician... so she suggested that we both could go together to westmall, followed by the optical shop, then go mcdonalds to study... basically, she lives near me, so we could study somewhere near OUR house together... that's a good plan cause i get to buy my stuff and study a little bit later due to the fact that i'm studying somewhere near my house... yah... so, i've decided to follow yvonne's plan... yah... so basically, today is just like this... since i'm off at like 5pm plus, i've missed the free dinner that is supposedly offered for students who stayed back for night study in school... T_T no... but, nevermind about that... i got to eat mcdonalds fries so i'm compensated in some ways... :P ok... think that's all for today... chao!
Y Sunday, August 13, 2006Y
Testing... trying to link a song...
11:08 PM
yo... i'm trying something here...JS - 杀破浪
Still alive today
2:01 PM
hey... for the whole night yesterday, i've been trying to desgin and redesign my new blog... you see, i didn't really like the original format designed by "fakeme"(see my links), so i reformated my blog till the current one here... basically, i find it quite nice to be able to format it... though i didn't know anything about html thing and i didn't know anything about the coding thing, i've managed to figure out a little bit through the way they phrase the thing, plus a lot of references from the codes of other skins... all and all, it become like this now... you can click on the 3 words down at the bottom corner right... each will change my "opening" column on the right... cool right... actually my tag should be hidden in that column, but the column seems too thin for tags... it's not that i cant resize the column, and it's not that i couldn't get tags that are of that "thin-ness", its just that if i widen the column, then it'll look too fat for the "Profile", "Links" and "Archives"... thin is nicer for the other 3 columns... furthermore, the tagbox couldn't resize the little box that writes your name and message... so it looks so damn ugly to have partial of the box chipped off and the written messages fitting nicely... so, i've decided to put it outside... haha... maybe i'll add in more links when i'm free sometime... :)
personal blog...
5:22 AM
think this will be my personal blog... i don't know how many will try using the same name as my space to try blogspot... but i think i didn't want to tell anyone about this blog... and neither do i want to link this blog from my space (cause that will be exposing my life...) well, the reason why i wanted to separate my clog with my blog is because i think i should separate them... it's like kind of weird when i told yi min today that i didn't want to force people to come see my clog... you see, i'd an interview regarding my clog today, and the interviewer is yi min... she asked me how do i go about telling people about my clog, and i said i didn't directly tell anyone about my address... to me, i think it's fate for people to be able to find my clog... (and because my name is "secret" so i need to live up to it...) i didn't like the idea that when i tell people the address, they are kind of "forced" to go to my clog cause they are my friends or anyone related to me... i know i am have weird thinking but please don't try arguing my ideas with me... since i've also written my personal life in my clog, it will mean that i'm forcing those who want to see my comic (IF there is any) to read about my personal life... well, i totally belief in fate, so i didn't want to force anybody or what... so i've decided to separate them... yah... and the other point is that i might be deciding on releasing my clog on newspaper... as it's like because of clever... he told me i need feedback... i think so too... it's like i'm kind of getting lost in drawing 校园笔记... and i really need feedback to get me back on track... yah... so maybe someday i might publish my clog address on the newspaper... wait till some day... if really, i get to publish that, i think that will contradict my answers in the interview... cause i said i didn't want to openly let anyone know about my clog! lolz... yah, so i'm deciding one that... maybe not too soon... but let's hope that i can upkeep this blog... i'm like known for not being able to upkeep blogs... lolz...