Y Monday, March 05, 2007Y
University?
11:45 PM
one moment i received my A level result, the other moment i'm back at my work place doing the same old thing. well, now i'm just really wondering what is the path that i want to take now. kind of tough to make the decision coz for me there is two extreme paths: Design or Business?well, since secondary school i have set my goals to get into university's business marketing course. yes, specifically business marketing. now, when the time comes for me to just take the path that i always yearned for, i find it hard to just move on. questions start pouring into my mind. is business marketing really what i want? why did i choose that? why? oh, what a good question.
i started recalling why did i want to do business marketing. ok, maybe it's the influence of my mum. since young i've been exposed to my mum's work. well, despite my poor english, i typed documents for my mum. so you can say that i am well-exposed to what my mum is working. i kind of like the way my mum market businesses. enjoyed how she thought of new ideas to attack the market and attract business. maybe that's why i wanted to do business marketing. coz i want to be like my mum. or perhaps, business marketing also has a tiny part on advertisements. so i like to use my talent on this aspect. and personally i think that will make me a marketeer that is different from the norm. maybe that's why. that's why i wanted to go for business marketing.
for now, i've second thoughts. yes, right at this crucial moment. i thought of doing design. i wanted to do digital animation. oh man. this is bad. why cant i just stick to my original choice. shit man. so now how am i going to make the decision? this is like you have always worked for A. but end up you also like B. so should i choose A or B? should i be loyal to A? i know how some may advise me, "follow your heart, choose what you like best" easier said than done. if you intend to tell me stuff like this, then might as well done say coz it isn't constructive at all. sorry for any offence made. but then, it is true to a large extend. so i will really really have to consider very clearly on what i want to take. i don't want to ponder over regrets that was made. i don't want to find excuse that so-and-so advise me on this, and so-and-so said like that better so i follow. this time, if i am going to make the decision, i will hold the responsibility of making it. that's why i'm kind of stressed up now.
my work now does not allow me to idle much and think about stuff, so there isn't much time for me to find out more about everything. but then, i hope i can find time to work out the solution to this ever-pressing issue, coz at the end of the day, decision has to be made. and my mum isn't giving me any advise at all. haha, so i can only depend on myself... jia you