Y Wednesday, November 26, 2008Y
ironically
7:17 PM
i felt SO much better after the mindless rambling. maybe it was stress due to exams, or maybe coz of anyting else. i totally can handle his messages now. they don't make me angry anymore. i don't think negatively anymore. his messasges, or maybe his existance doesn't affect me anymore. this is a good sign. :) Now I know the good thing about ending things early, you will get over it early too.Things now are better for me. I guess my life is going to be only about work, and I doubt anyone will understand my postion completely, or will be willing to accept who i am. So in order to not put myself in the same situation again, it is best for me to not accept anyone before i graduate. this sounds totally insane, and appears that i'm still affected, but I'm pretty sure I'm sane now, and my thoughts are logical.
Who in this world will accept someone who can't spend much time with him? True love? please be practical. there are definitely a certain degree of affection in a relationship, but it requires more than that in a relationship. hard to put it in words, but I choose my own way. good for me, I can now fully concentrate my work.