Y Tuesday, May 26, 2009Y
End of another Torment
11:49 AM
Congrats to another end of my semester. At this point in time as I write, I'm waiting for my boyfriend Willie to arrive. Yes, much have changed and had happened. In fact, from my previous post, I NEVER had imagined myself to be in the situation I'm in now. ok, one thing at a time.First, my school work, again. Right now results aren't out yet, and it's supposed to be out this coming Friday. Yikes! I'm not pinning hope on anything extremely good, but please don't make my CAP drop. This semester was as tough as the previous ones, but in many different ways. It started out as a honey moon period where there were rather few things to do initially. However, the horror came after the semester break. It was way off control. Tonnes and tonnes of projects deadlines just squeezed within short periods, tutors increasing their expectations gradually, and we were all stretched to our limits. That's not the worst, try having flu, cough, fever (high fever), sore throat, gastric flu bla bla bla with all the projects, it was A GREAT HELP TO MY PROGRESS. I almost died, literally, during the last few weeks of the semester. My body is now so meatless that most of my long-time-no-see friends stunned at the sight. Seriously, the end of the semester saved me from hell. F*** that tutors that planned the studio. Can't they cooridnate themselves so that we don't have four project submissions in a week and at least 2 submissions for 4weeks in a row?
You see, that's why I don't expect much of a high grade from a poor sickly me. However, I hoped my grades doesn't drop or I can't apply for financial aid for my exchange... haix.
Ok enough of school work. Let's talk about the situation of my family now. My mum went overseas to Australia with her husband to work. My youngest sister is left in Singapore at the care of her god-mother, so she doesn't live with me anymore. So the resulting fact: I'm living alone with my two brothers in a HDB now. Who would have imagined that just a few months ago? Well, it's not that we are not an independent bunch, so things are settling down now. I'm like fully in-charged of all the admin and financial stuff of the family.
My mum treats me like a Singapore-based secretary, and I have to represent her in Singapore. Meaning: whenever my sister is sick, I have to be there that instance like she would; whenever my mum's friends want to meet my sister, that'll be my duty to bring her there too; for any financial transactions required, the ATM card is with me; if there's anything she needs in Australia that's still me to buy and send over to her. yes all by myself. Don't ask me what my brothers can help, I'll be glad that they just stick to their share of housework. My mum just thinks I'm good at doing all those stuff so she ALWAYS asked me, and she thinks that her sons won't do the job so... yah, it's me. If I'm really free, yes of course I'll do it. But please, having the workload in school? and she's still forcing me all the way from Australia just to get HER THINGS done. She didn't even know that I'm sick or vomiting gastric juice the whole night, but just keep checking on whether I've done her stuff, and only her stuff.
When I told her that I'm sick, all she did was to blame me for not taking care of myself. Yes, I may be a workaholic, but at least that's my way of dealing with my work. Before she left, we already had conflicts on how I handled my life. She just keep suspecting the reality of me working overnight in school, and keep preaching about how I should eat home more. Her reasons was "girls shouldn't hangout so late regardless the reason." So she wants me to hack care my work? sometimes I really don't understand what's she's thinking. But well, I am something she won't understand too. so no matter what, I'll still help her as I feel it as a responsibility that I should fufil as her daughter. Yes, treating all her requests as a duty to be completed, as long as she doesn't quarrel with me about my life.
Ok, due to time constrain, I shall stop here. I'll mention about Mr. Willie next time. lolx