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Sister's in Australia now

2009-06-05T02:33:00.002+08:00

After going through all the trouble, my sister is finally in Australia now. Whether will she be back, I'm not too sure. Since my mum and her father is there, I see no reason for her to come back to Singapore, unless she really really can't get use to the environment there. Seriously, though having her in Singapore was really a chore, and that most of the responsibilities of taking care of her lies on me, I still missed her.

I heard she's really bored there. Basically she stays at home the whole day. yah, my parents are working during the day, and she's somewhat alone at home. Their housemate's wife is there now for vacation, so there's actually someone to take care of my sister during the day. However, I heard that the housemate's wife is leaving within a week or so, which will then leave my sister all alone if if the adult is not around. According to the previous flight booking, my sister is due to return on the 24th of June. My grandaunt and grandma is supposed to visit my mother on the 21st of june, and return with my sister. However, due to health problems, my grandma is unable to proceed with the plan, and thus my mother and grandaunt came up with another brilliant plan; to ask me to replace my grandma for the visit. This is totally logical for them, but absurd for me.

Seriously, I have my own plans of finding a job and do stuff for the June holidays, not to fly to Asutralia whenever you want me to. Is it really hard to understand that I do not only have the responsibilities of a daugther to fufil? Deep down, I really wonder why am I always the one. My mom definitely has more than one child, but most duties were directed to me. If she were to allocate jobs properly, I wouldn't have felt the pain. But well, she wouldn't have thought that she's asking me to do too much stuff. And whenever I voice out, she would be very very very upset that I don't understand her. Which makes me really hard to convey my thoughts to her. Anyway, she's my mother, so I am always indebted to her no matter what. I really hope this thought can be sustained for as long as I live, as it would be a pain to quarrel with her.

End of another Torment

2009-05-26T11:49:00.002+08:00

Congrats to another end of my semester. At this point in time as I write, I'm waiting for my boyfriend Willie to arrive. Yes, much have changed and had happened. In fact, from my previous post, I NEVER had imagined myself to be in the situation I'm in now. ok, one thing at a time.

First, my school work, again. Right now results aren't out yet, and it's supposed to be out this coming Friday. Yikes! I'm not pinning hope on anything extremely good, but please don't make my CAP drop. This semester was as tough as the previous ones, but in many different ways. It started out as a honey moon period where there were rather few things to do initially. However, the horror came after the semester break. It was way off control. Tonnes and tonnes of projects deadlines just squeezed within short periods, tutors increasing their expectations gradually, and we were all stretched to our limits. That's not the worst, try having flu, cough, fever (high fever), sore throat, gastric flu bla bla bla with all the projects, it was A GREAT HELP TO MY PROGRESS. I almost died, literally, during the last few weeks of the semester. My body is now so meatless that most of my long-time-no-see friends stunned at the sight. Seriously, the end of the semester saved me from hell. F*** that tutors that planned the studio. Can't they cooridnate themselves so that we don't have four project submissions in a week and at least 2 submissions for 4weeks in a row?

You see, that's why I don't expect much of a high grade from a poor sickly me. However, I hoped my grades doesn't drop or I can't apply for financial aid for my exchange... haix.

Ok enough of school work. Let's talk about the situation of my family now. My mum went overseas to Australia with her husband to work. My youngest sister is left in Singapore at the care of her god-mother, so she doesn't live with me anymore. So the resulting fact: I'm living alone with my two brothers in a HDB now. Who would have imagined that just a few months ago? Well, it's not that we are not an independent bunch, so things are settling down now. I'm like fully in-charged of all the admin and financial stuff of the family.

My mum treats me like a Singapore-based secretary, and I have to represent her in Singapore. Meaning: whenever my sister is sick, I have to be there that instance like she would; whenever my mum's friends want to meet my sister, that'll be my duty to bring her there too; for any financial transactions required, the ATM card is with me; if there's anything she needs in Australia that's still me to buy and send over to her. yes all by myself. Don't ask me what my brothers can help, I'll be glad that they just stick to their share of housework. My mum just thinks I'm good at doing all those stuff so she ALWAYS asked me, and she thinks that her sons won't do the job so... yah, it's me. If I'm really free, yes of course I'll do it. But please, having the workload in school? and she's still forcing me all the way from Australia just to get HER THINGS done. She didn't even know that I'm sick or vomiting gastric juice the whole night, but just keep checking on whether I've done her stuff, and only her stuff.

When I told her that I'm sick, all she did was to blame me for not taking care of myself. Yes, I may be a workaholic, but at least that's my way of dealing with my work. Before she left, we already had conflicts on how I handled my life. She just keep suspecting the reality of me working overnight in school, and keep preaching about how I should eat home more. Her reasons was "girls shouldn't hangout so late regardless the reason." So she wants me to hack care my work? sometimes I really don't understand what's she's thinking. But well, I am something she won't understand too. so no matter what, I'll still help her as I feel it as a responsibility that I should fufil as her daughter. Yes, treating all her requests as a duty to be completed, as long as she doesn't quarrel with me about my life.

Ok, due to time constrain, I shall stop here. I'll mention about Mr. Willie next time. lolx

argh. why why why.

2008-12-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

Getting a range of Bs has always been a norm ever since i've gotten into University, and it wasn't really very demoralizing for me since i've already convinced myself that i'm just a B- to B+ standard student. So what if my 8MCs studio got a B or B-, i don't really feel sad unless i see a C. But this time, it's different. I almost cried over that grade i got for my studio.

Thinking back on the amount of work that i've put in for the project, and how i struggled on the path to an impossible mission. In the end, i made it through and made an impossible idea into reality. I thought it was pretty obvious that it was a great struggle for me to pull it through, but apparently, it wasn't. How silly of me to believe that it was a great project. Mr Christian even wanted to put my project in his book. Though it was cumbersome with the photoshoot and everything, deep in my heart i felt honoured that my teacher choosed my project. MY PROJECT, the lovely project that i've spent endless nights just to find a solution to make it into reality. For a moment, i was so proud of what i've done. I almost cried when my project was done. This time, the thought went through my mind that maybe i could get an A for this, even just an A- would be good enough. Reality smashed right onto my face: I got a B-.

This is the worst B- I've ever got. For the first time i really really feel that i can get a good grade, yet i've gotten a grade that is worse than my previous semesters. It was as if all that i've done was bullshit in the eyes of my tutors. TOTAL BULLSHIT. yes, it was foolish of me to believe i can do it this time, it was definitely mulfunction in my brain to even had that thought. Ridiculous and total insanity! now i'm more assured about my abilty. A lousy grade suits my ability. Maybe i'm just not cut out for industrial design. Why should i even bother to build my passion for it when it was SO APPARENT that it's not my cup of tea?

Let time flushes away all the disappointments and emotions that i'm feeling now, till my sky turns grey, so i no longer feel for my projects. As of the start of school, projects are assignments to be completed, not a part of me. it used to be like that, and it will continue to be.

slack

2008-12-13T02:07:00.004+08:00

i'm slacking like nobody's business now. slacking till i become an old granny, slacking till i hate myself. i don't like who am i now. sounds pretty stupid but i guess something is wrong somewhere in my life that i really feel irritated by it. it's like i've been really wild about life recently, going out and meeting up with friends. that sounds really fine, i mean it's not that i'm those unsociable human beings that prefer to stay at home rather than hanging out. however, something is wrong. i don't know why and the reason is yet to be found. my life is weird now, and i don't know why. i just hate myself now, and there's nothing i can do about it.

super sian of com center job

2008-12-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

i really really dono how to quit com center. i'm fine doing the drawings during my holidays, but during the sem? it's no way i can cope. given the amount of work that i'm recieving this semester, i doubt i can cope with the increased workload for the next semester. is there a problem with his ability to understand? am i not clear enough in my words or what? I guess i'll have to email his superior directly for this. Please don't say that i didnt give you any chance to react. i've messaged you a long time ago, and you refused to take my words and find a replacement. now, i shall email your superior directly to inform my stand, I SHALL NOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR DRAWINGS ANYMORE! I know i may sound kind of irresponsible for quitting, but i guess you need to know that there are different priorities in different people. OBVIOUSLY studies and projects are more important to me than your work. i shall finish my last bit of work that i can help you, but that will be the last of it. hope you undetstand my position. it's not because the pay isn't attractive, but it gets really tiring to have to draw something when you haven't even got time to finish what you REALLY have to finish. please, leave me.

ironically

2008-11-26T19:17:00.002+08:00

i felt SO much better after the mindless rambling. maybe it was stress due to exams, or maybe coz of anyting else. i totally can handle his messages now. they don't make me angry anymore. i don't think negatively anymore. his messasges, or maybe his existance doesn't affect me anymore. this is a good sign. :) Now I know the good thing about ending things early, you will get over it early too.

Things now are better for me. I guess my life is going to be only about work, and I doubt anyone will understand my postion completely, or will be willing to accept who i am. So in order to not put myself in the same situation again, it is best for me to not accept anyone before i graduate. this sounds totally insane, and appears that i'm still affected, but I'm pretty sure I'm sane now, and my thoughts are logical.

Who in this world will accept someone who can't spend much time with him? True love? please be practical. there are definitely a certain degree of affection in a relationship, but it requires more than that in a relationship. hard to put it in words, but I choose my own way. good for me, I can now fully concentrate my work.

Hope no one reads this.

2008-11-20T01:17:00.002+08:00

I hope this blog will be buried in this little world of mine, coz it meant to be really really personal.

It kind of surprized me that the broke up still affects me. Over unoccupied times, I would think back on every word that you said that day, how it hurts me, and how stupid I feel over what I've done for you. YOU IDIOT. On the day that I met you after we quarrelled (thought technically speaking it's not a quarrel actually), you never tried hard at all to keep the relationship. "It was a mistake that we began", hello?? who are you to say that? are you saying that you realize that confessing to me was a mistake after I accepted you?? what the fuck. i feel so stupid, shouldn't have accepted you, i shouldn't have tried to make you happy, i shouldn't try so hard to find time for you, i shouldn't have done ANYTHING for you. YOU and your STUPID REQUEST made me do something SOOOOO STUPID, yet what is your response? I don't like you enough to tolerate ALL YOUR HURTFUL COMMENTS! do you think i'm those kind of girl that will gracefully accept everthing that you said that day and cry alone in the dark at home MYSELF? sorry, I not a xiao nv ren, neither am I going to tolerate your nonsense. you are too much. AND i don't feel your sincerity in your apology that day. you are just saying it cause you HAD to. I guess what affects me most out of everything now is that how could i ever EVER let you even close to my heart. All the efforts that I'd put in the relationship is seen as shit by you. SHIT. why should I always think in your perspective when you aren't worth me doing so; you don't RESPECT ME AT ALL. you are just imagining a perfect partner that will obey and go by your perfect imagination of what a perfect relationship would be like. sorry, I'm not the girl you are looking for. oh man, how can i get over this stupid feeling that I'm feeling right now. YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE. you are contacting me now coz you are bored with your NS life. which makes me feel even more annoying over myself for being an entertainment to your boring NS life. YOU ARE JUST FINDING A COMPANION, YOU DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE ME. ARGH!!! I FEEL SO STUPID!!! ARGGGGGGHHHHH!! no wonder you said all those words, coz you don't like me for me, you wanted me to be YOUR TYPE of girlfriend, NOT ME. mother fucker. i really wonder this feeling was generated from extreme sadness or over extreme hatred. Tell you the truth, we can NEVER be friends again. So I hope God tells you to stop messaging me and stop contacting me as if nothing happens. Something happened, and it's not going to go away. I will remember all the stupid moments the moment I see you, all your messages are only telling me one thing "YOU ARE BORED OF YOUR LIFE AGAIN". why do you only message me when you are having night duty? coz you've got no one else to message to right!? coz you hope that i'll entertain you again right? no way, i will not do it anymore. i will not be mercy with guy like you who treat me like shit. what a MCP asshole are you, you son of a bitch idiot. Do you know I seriously find you weaker than me? You are not capable in many aspects yet you are trying to act MCP? not that i cannot accept a MCP guy, but at least you should make me feel that you are more capable than me before i can "submit" to you. but no, you are a MCP without capabilities. And I can give in to you as much as i can tolerate, coz i feel that one can never get the perfect one that you really want in life. but THAT DAY you went overboard, stepped over the line, INSULTED ME. ok, that's it. GAME OVER. you happy now? since it was a mistake to you after all. since you said "if I really liked you that much, I would have ran after you that day when you ran away." oh ho, MCP. fine fine fine, don't expect me to entertain you ever again. EVER EVER. i'll TRY to smile if we inevitably meet someday, but don't expect me to be friendly or even cared about how you life's going coz I DON'T CARE EVEN IF YOU DIE.

please leave me in peace. I just want to get over it. get over this stupid feeling, AND STOP THINKING ABOUT WHATS DONE AND OVER. ARGH! WHY DOES IT AFFECT ME!!

sick today

2008-05-06T18:30:00.000+08:00

tomorrow exams. shit

back after a long time

2008-05-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

It's been really really a long time. Almost half a year since the last post. What has changed? So much has changed.

I'm going on 20 this year, so are all dragon babies borned in 1988. haha. I'm still studying in NUS industrial design course, and still the president of TXY. Can be considered as CCA-less in NUS now coz I'm no longer active in NUStudio.
Got closer with my coursemates, especially Stephanie who now calls me for free as she signed up for M1's student plan and puts me as one of her sun friends. We hang out most of the time together.
Yvonne also signed up for a similar plan, with me as her sun friend too. She and her bf seems to be going on quite well. She's in Arts and trying to cope.
Pei Xuan left the national team for air rifles, but she is still participating competitions on the international level. She's going to munich to participate in the qualifying competition for the next olympics. She got into NTU this year without using her air rifle to appeal. VERY HAPPY FOR HER!
Cecilia and Dianjun are taking their A's this year. JIAYOU!

Well, time really flies. Before I knew it, I've just completed my year 1 industrial design course. Technically speaking, my course will only be completed after my exams are over, which is officially on the 7th of May, 7pm.

The course really drains my energy. This semester has far too much projects to handle as compaired to the previous one. It was as if I am going through a special training to be superwoman, training myself to be tough and strong, and immune to sleepiness at the same time. The course took up so much of my time that I could hardly have time left for TXY, much less for myself. I'm pretty screwed up this few months. Both for my school work and TXY stuff. I could hardly keep track of what's happening, and staying over in the studio becomes part of my life.

Though it sounds really really bad, but I do can some comfort from this course. Things like when my tutor praise my work, and see some value in my design; when I know that my friends are in this together, and we can put through everything together; and when my product is "produced". Though the idea of changing course did appear somewhere in my mind before, but I know I will not change the course. This is because it is painful to loose what ever I have now. Not to say that I LOVE staying overnight, but I think I will really miss the course if I really change. Especially to think that I no longer have something in common with my coursemates, they are part of my motivation to stay.

Enough of school, let's talk about TXY. The greatest challenge is to juggle TXY and school. I felt quite bad to be so tied up by school that I've got little time for TXY. Wen Hua Ying is at the last week of this month, and I'm still stucked with examinations now. Pre-camp is on the 10th, performance for wan hui is due on the 17th, logistics to be transported on the 19th, 20th-22nd will be the camp itself. It'll occupy most of my post-examination time. Then on the 31st of May, I'm going to China, Xia Men for 8 days. It can be considered as "working" as I'm suppose to lead a group of students there, take care of them and I'm paid! Though the allowance is only $150, but I get to travel for free, with meals and lodging provided for. haha. I'm supposed to go there with Pei Xuan and dian jun. But Dian Jun isn't available during that period so I'm still looking for another guy. Still trying to ask Zhi Wei whether can I get another girl instead coz there aren't any suitable guys up for the job in TXY.

Okie~~ Time to end this post. Have been writing it since dono when. (wasn't really focusing on writing it so took so long)

things are settling down

2007-09-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

so many things happened since the last post. maybe i'll just update as much i as can.

hmmm, let's talk about the uni life.

well, though i said i plan to take up 3 CCAs the last entry, the outcome was that i'm now only with one CCA - NUStudios a.k.a the film school. well, there are many reasons for not taking up the other two CCAs. for cheerleading, the reason was simple, it was just coz Yvon didn't give me any information about it, so since she's not really enthu about it then well, i'm fine with not joining since i wanted to join that CCA only because she wants to.

then for the Hip-hop CCA, you do think that i didn't get in because i didn't pass the auditions, do you? well, it was because of the auditions, but not because i didn't pass, but because i didn't even went for the auditions! the reason is kind of complicated. Basically, it was because i choose to do TXY stuff instead. Well, i'll explain that later when i come to TXY stuff. So yah, i didn't get into hip-hop. but anyway, even if i really went for the auditions, i may not get in! haha. so yah, i'm now left with only 1 CCA.

For my course, i'm now dealing absolutely fine. there are a lot of presentations for us to do, on average, about 1 presentation per week. so there are tonnes of projects for me to catch up with. other then that, there are also sketching and modelling sessions for us. we are to hand up at least 5 sketches a week. well, those are sketches of products we found in our everyday life, till now i've already sketched handphones, staplers, wallet, correction tapes, vernier callipers, water bottle, earphone, hair clip, pen, mouse (as in computer mouse), key chains and many many more.

for the modelling sessions, we have one model to build every week. the 1st model that we have to do is a 100mmX100mmX100mm perfect cube, literally, with discrepancies of 99.5mm - 100.5mm. a vernier calliper is used to take the accurate measurements. also, a trisquare is used to check the "squareness" of every side. any more then 1degree of unsquareness is considered UNACCEPTABLE. this is stuppid. the following projects are all using acrylic to make curves. using files and sandpaper to ensure smoothness of the curves... in addition to all these standard work, we sometimes have surprize assignments to do. so our work do not only include the standard every week assignments i've mentioned earlier.

another thing about my uni life is that i'm starting to work part-time at computer centre! biao gang intro me to work there as a comic artist, basically to help them in designing and drawing. per hour is $8, and the maximum i can work per week is 8 hours. well, NUS policy is that student part-timers in school cannot be overworked, thus i'm not allowed to work more. but then an extra $200 a month would be good enough for me to buy new materials. haha

ok, enough of my school life. let's talk about TXY.

well, 1st sept was the 25th anniversary (supposedly) for TXY. i'd been SOOOOOOO damn busy preparing it. i was in-charged of a history gallery for the event, so with only 3 members in my committee, i was supposed to make a damn nice gallery for the event for everyone to see, featuring the 25 years of TXY. we are so short-handed. partly because one of my committee members encounter problems with his family and couldn't participate in the preparation. so those who knows maths would know that we were left with only 2 members to produce the stuff. ha ha. now you know why i had to skip the hip-hop auditions for this, we were simply in danger of failing to produce stuff on time! so yah, i pulled all the hands that could help me in completing this, and yes, the stuff are up on time.

adding to my load, i was also the emcee of the event. that was so stressful. since it was supposed to be an extremely formal event, i went to the extent of wearing my prom night dress! what's worse, the preparation for the emcee script was done the night before the event, so yah, i was NOT familiar with the script AT ALL. but hey, it's over now. haha

oh yah, that day was also the day when the exco committees stepped down for the new committee. it was then i took up my new post in TXY as the president of the club. a whole new experience with a whole new responsibility.

and yah, that's all for now. couldn't blog any longer coz i've early lessons tomorrow. nights everyone! hope i'll have new stuff to talk again soon~~

life's so far not bad

2007-08-20T11:18:00.000+08:00

though a little tight on my scheule, i still plan to take up 3 CCAs.

the film producion.
it seems interesting to be able to film videos and edit them. Even if i don't have any talent for a director, I still can act a little bit. hehez. Also, there are cooperations with external organizations on film making. so if i get into the team, salary is paid! haha. that's good.

Hip-Hop Dance.
i know i don't look like a hip hop dancer, but that's the very reason why i want to learn. haha. but there's no guarantee admission to that CCA. I still have to go through auiditions. so if they really see some potential in me, then i'll be in their CCA.

cheerleading
this is definitely not my idea. however, since i've promised a friend to join it, i'll leave it to her to bring me around. but for my size i think i have to be at the bottom of the pyrimad. haiz...

for now, just busy adapting to the new stupid system of the University. for every semester, we'll have to bid for the modules that you want to take. this sounds really stupid because all the modules are essential to your promotion so i don't see the need to bid for them. -_-''' sad to say, for my course they don't allocate the modules to you, so you go bid for the modules. if you are out-bidded, haleluya to you man.

after bidding for the module, you will have to ballot for the tutorial. which is equally stupid. the tutorials don't come with the lectures. you only get the lectures when you won the bid, so tutorials are a total different issue. stupid right? haiz.

Industrial Design

2007-06-25T16:43:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm attending University soon. I was offered Project and Facilities Management initially through post. Sometime later, I received a call from NUS to offer me Industrial Design instead. What the. My heart just skipped a beat. In the end, after much consideration and advice from all that I could ask, Industrial Design was the path choosen. After attending the Admission Day talk last Saturday, I just kind of regret choosing this. I realize this subject requires A HELL LOT of money. Just for a starter pack of all the tools and stationaries that I'm going to need for the course, it's $100. This excludes other optional but good to have stuff AND all the books for the course. In addition, the idiotic orientation camp is going to cost me $45! >_< yes, they make it optional but stressed it's importance. -_-''' kill me man. I should have considered giving tuition. I'm more of a leech to my family. this sucks. though my dad keeps reminding me that I don't have to worry about the university financial problem, he'll also sometimes remind me that he's work in China is unstable. errrrr.....

blogging again...

2007-05-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

didn't know why but i feel like blogging here again. maybe there are some things i like to talk it out but didnt want a lot of people to know about it. well, I've received a letter from NTU to get into Economics. (they even sent me an invitation to the tea party. WTF) I didnt want to get into econs. all i wanted was business. and sad to say, none of the universities even considered me for an interview... which was why i was rather saddened. on the other hand, i went for an entry test for Industrial Design at NUS. Still haven't heard any replies from them yet but I feel that NUS business also didnt want me at all. T_T

I am really demoralized. I didnt understand why i wasn't even selected for interview. if i failed the interview, at least i know that they think that i do not have what they are looking for. and now, all i know is they totally didnt want me coz my results sucks. ok, maybe i'm just PURELY unlucky. so yah, all i can wait for now is to appeal. >_< if lady luck decides to abandon me again, and NUS industrial design dont think i'm up to it, then fine, let's go NTU econs and I will stay there unhappily ever after.

University seems to far away...

2007-05-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

wonder if i was even considered a tiny bit by any university. till now there was almost NO news from any stupid university. well, other then a letter from NUS industrial design where they asked me to go for a test on the 29th april. but sad to say, though they sent out the later on the 17th april, i only received it on the 29th itself. that's because my letterbox is under renovation a month ago and the new key was only received on the 29th. so when we went to get the 1 month old letters, we found the NUS letter in that pile. can you imagine how sad am i??? having no calls from any university had put me into depressing mode, yet this news just shocked me out of no where.

luckily, i managed to give the office of administration a call and explained the situation. they asked me to send them an email explaining everything and a re-schedule of the test might be considered on the 10th. sounded good news to me. but till now, there was no reply from them on any confirmation of the new test date. oh shit. maybe i'll call again on monday.

today a reporter interviewed me and my mum for mother's day special. they took photos of the both of us together. it'll be up on wednesday's lianhe zaobao. i just hope i don't look like i'm going to make a bad day for the readers...

...

2007-04-15T13:07:00.000+08:00

didn't blog here for almost a month. don't think i want to continue blogging two sides anymore...

2007-03-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

now it's the suppose holidays for the students. suddenly, the fact that i'm not longer enjoying student privileges came down so hard on me. no more anyhow holidays for you to look forward to when you start working. haiz. tomorrow it'll be the orientation for the TXY newbies. i'm taking leave tomorrow to keep a lookout of everything. Pei xuan will take leave on friday. well, really kind of worried about jia ming handling everything alone. though i even wonder is he going to be awake tomorrow. opps. ok, i'll give him a morning call when i'm leaving my home tomorrow.

met joy on monday for dinner. well, it's been a long time since i've met her. this time there aren't a lot of time for us to talk and crap. i met her after work at westmall. we had dinner at swensens. knowing that we will be meeting for dinner today, joy still ate first before meeting. really wonder what's going through her mind. i really don't know what's she's thinking. i know there's something about her but i'm no mind reader girl, obviously i won't know what you are thinking! i felt distant from her that night. maybe it's not her problem, maybe it's mine. can't really freely talk about things. sometimes she takes things too seriously, and sometimes didn't realize the seriousness of the situation. hard to balance ah. don't know what happen.

but anyway, yvon happened to be shopping for my sister's assessment books at westmall that night. well, that problematic and cute sister of mine really needs serious help on her studies. but sad to say, her own sister couldn't give her much help. so we got a tuition teacher for her, and that's yvon. so yvon needs my help in choosing the assessment books, so i went to meet her after i ate my dinner with joy. chose two chinese assessments and one maths assessments. haiz... good luck sis.

ok. time to work now. got stuff to do. take care people.

Unfortunate Open House

2007-03-11T01:52:00.001+08:00

Went to NTU and NUS open house with Pei Xuan today, (opps should be yesterday). my original plan was to go all three universities' open house today, but however, time didn't allow me to do that, so the station just ends at NUS.

By the way, I think i've decided to do business. as for the exact specialization that i want to study, I think i would prefer accounts or banking and finance. i know this seems like different from what i originally wanted - business marketing. but then, after consulting many, i realize that getting a business marketing is kind of useless. in the sense that in the working world, getting a business marketing degree doesn't get me recognized as knowing how to do marketing. it is like, to the working world, the degree doesn't mean you know marketing coz in this field, the experience is more important then qualification. so well, i decide to choose a high-demand specialization of accounting. accounting degrees are like hot-cakes in great demand. even if i do not want to pursue a career as an accountant, a 3-5 years of working experience as an accountant will aid me A LOT in my other careers in many industries. but like i've said, accounting is tough to get in, so i'll just have to try my luck with ABB.

back to the open house. The first stop was NTU. Nice college there but transport aren't very convenient. the good thing about NTU is that it has 3 years direct honours. which means if your grades are very good (about all distinctions), you will graduate with an honous instead of a normal degree. unlike other universities where upon completing 3 years, those with the best grades can only proceed with the 4th year to graduate with honours. in addition, other universities only allow the top 5% to proceed with the pursuit of honours, while NTU allows those with applicable grades to get honours. which means as long as you have the grades, you get the honours. thus the number of candidates that can graduate with honours is not limited to a certain percent only. on the other hand, if you are the top 25% of the cohort, you will be offered double specialization. meaning i can choose to specialize in accounting and marketing, for example.

but of course, NTU is not even within top 100 world wide. NUS on the other hand is ranked 19th among the world's universities. so getting a degree from NUS is much more prestigious in a global context. Looking at the number of people flooding the business booth at NUS makes me more worried about the competition i'm facing. but nevertheless, i'll still try to apply for the business accounting and business. i didnt have the chance to ask more about business of NUS as the crowd only allows me to grab an information booklet.

but anyway, a sad thing happened at the open house. Pei Xuan and I bought a pair of ripple slippers each at NTU open house at a discount of 20%. after that, we went to NUS's open house with all the stuff. while touring the hostel, we left our stuff at a corner as all the stuff are pretty heavy. who knows when we are back for them, the only things left are a few information booklets that we got from both fairs. all the free notebooks and our slippers are gone! TT_TT really really sad. i bought the slipper not only because it's cheap, it's also because i really need new slippers coz my old ones barely have any friction. haiz... what to do? count myself unlucky lo...

University?

2007-03-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

one moment i received my A level result, the other moment i'm back at my work place doing the same old thing. well, now i'm just really wondering what is the path that i want to take now. kind of tough to make the decision coz for me there is two extreme paths: Design or Business?

well, since secondary school i have set my goals to get into university's business marketing course. yes, specifically business marketing. now, when the time comes for me to just take the path that i always yearned for, i find it hard to just move on. questions start pouring into my mind. is business marketing really what i want? why did i choose that? why? oh, what a good question.

i started recalling why did i want to do business marketing. ok, maybe it's the influence of my mum. since young i've been exposed to my mum's work. well, despite my poor english, i typed documents for my mum. so you can say that i am well-exposed to what my mum is working. i kind of like the way my mum market businesses. enjoyed how she thought of new ideas to attack the market and attract business. maybe that's why i wanted to do business marketing. coz i want to be like my mum. or perhaps, business marketing also has a tiny part on advertisements. so i like to use my talent on this aspect. and personally i think that will make me a marketeer that is different from the norm. maybe that's why. that's why i wanted to go for business marketing.

for now, i've second thoughts. yes, right at this crucial moment. i thought of doing design. i wanted to do digital animation. oh man. this is bad. why cant i just stick to my original choice. shit man. so now how am i going to make the decision? this is like you have always worked for A. but end up you also like B. so should i choose A or B? should i be loyal to A? i know how some may advise me, "follow your heart, choose what you like best" easier said than done. if you intend to tell me stuff like this, then might as well done say coz it isn't constructive at all. sorry for any offence made. but then, it is true to a large extend. so i will really really have to consider very clearly on what i want to take. i don't want to ponder over regrets that was made. i don't want to find excuse that so-and-so advise me on this, and so-and-so said like that better so i follow. this time, if i am going to make the decision, i will hold the responsibility of making it. that's why i'm kind of stressed up now.

my work now does not allow me to idle much and think about stuff, so there isn't much time for me to find out more about everything. but then, i hope i can find time to work out the solution to this ever-pressing issue, coz at the end of the day, decision has to be made. and my mum isn't giving me any advise at all. haha, so i can only depend on myself... jia you

life just goes on as boring as ever

2007-02-22T12:16:00.000+08:00

kind of bored of my life. maybe because it's just after CNY. maybe because Apple didn't come today. maybe because the job is really boring me to death. but you know what? it's has really been a busy morning today. i almost never put down the phone. almost. so busy la... haiz. my superior is not here today, so i really have to cover her duties. i wonder if i really have the time to help her clear her voice mails. well having my 'lunchtime' now (which i didn't go) i still hear calls kept ringing. though i'm physically beside the phone, i can choose not to answer them as i'm suppose to be having lunch now. yes...

though busy, the job is really boring. it makes you stupid coz you are saying the same things over and over again. dealing with a wide range of customers and you get complain from all different kinds of customers. some scold the ~~bloody shit~~ out of you, some talk to you nicely, some threaten you. all sorts. and it becomes more dreadful to come to work everyday. and everytime you reach office, you just hope for 6pm to come, faster. or maybe, lunchtime to come. but hey, i need this job. so no matter how dreadful it is, i'll continue working. at least until i finish my current contract. maybe till that time, i'll consider whether i want to extend my contract. for now, i just live by everyday, hoping time flies in the day, and slower after six.

well, A's coming out very very soon. how i wish i can get it soon so that i won't be feeling that i'm living day by day aimlessly. coz with my current job, it's really not something worth looking forward to. unless of course, when i don't receive so much calls in one day, or perhaps just in one morning, then i'll find it a more pleasant day to go by. or else my head will crack and blood will flow out of my mouth like a merlion.

btw, i didn't go for lunch coz i wasn't feeling too well to walk all the way to IKEA. so i just just opted out.

Happy new year

2007-02-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

just ended the CNY holidays and now i'm back to my workplace. Hope everything is well today. ^_^ had a late night yesterday but durian was worth exchanging the sleep time for. hehez. My big brother brought 10 friends home last night. I was almost ambushed with my pyjamas on. lucky my swift reaction got me changed into something decent looking enough. lolz

CNY was still the same. going to the same places and meeting people that you met last year. well, it is good news if you can meet them every year. and as expected, people asked about which University i want to go and what i want to study. i just replied with the model answer "depends on my results". of course, the next question that came in was "so you think your results ok?" "ok ba"

the CNY countdown show was damn disappointing. it is just full of games for people to win money. it was especially annoying to hear how a women from china says how "bad" is our CNY show. and i am absolutely not willing to join her criticism. but then it is some what true. so i just kept my comments to myself. i wonder how i survived the night.

Maidless...

2007-02-16T09:19:00.000+08:00

long time never post liao. been very busy lately... -_-''' so i just slack a bit at work and blog a bit here...

my dad is back from china on monday. Jia yun is still as cute as ever! haha. yesterday, after my work, i went to westmall to meet my dad and the others to buy my CNY clothes. yes, it's not done yet. haiz... and sad to say i have to buy them at westmall. i suggested Bugis but end up my father didnt want to go there. T_T so i've to squeeze out some clothes out of westmall or i'll have to go naked during CNY. so yesterday, i bought 2 tops, a skirt and a pair of jeans. the jeans is suppose to be "skinny" jeans but i didn't know why the cutting is so big. i bought size 25 and it still fit comfortably on me (meaning i dont have to squeeze up the jeans up my butt) i really wonder if felicia wants to buy the jeans, she may need size 20. lolz

anyway, another big news is that i'm maidless again. yes, my maid was sent off on monday. well, considering the fact that we really need a maid (coz i've started working), we would have been very reluctant to send off a maid. however, we really have to do so. it is definitely not because of her BO. we've successfully treated that problem for her. it's just because of her attitude. obviously, for a family that needs a maid like us, we would be rather complacent as much as we can be. but the only thing that we cannot tolerate is her attitude towards her work.

ok, let's not say about how lazy is she in her housework. the most important thing about having the maid is to take care yuan yuan. however, she definitely didnt have the 'heart' to do so. there was once my mum forgot to give yuan yuan pocket money. normally, my mum would give lots of coins and little two dollar notes to my maid so that she can do some last minute marketing. so when my sister did not have any money, she asked from the maid. and guess what, my maid just tell her "i've got no money! don't get from me ah!" shit her. and the worst is that my maid only gave her TWO FIVE CENTS. yes, the tiny gold coin. how can she have the heart to do that to my sister? and the fact is that the money that she has is MY MUM's, not hers!

Upon knowing about this, my mum asked my maid to take out all the money that my mum gave her. you know what? she has a $10 on her. $10?! where on earth did she get the money from? her reply was that she collects all the money my mum gave her and change it to $10 at the market. she's only here like a few days and she's doing this kind of things? how do we know that she really DID get the $10 from exchanging? and even if she did, she've got no right to do it as it is my mum's money. we gave her coins and two dollars only coz she only needs to do simple marketing. why would she need $10?

the most fustrating thing is that, given her responsibilities to take care of my sister, even if she really don't have any money from my mum, she should have the courtesy to use her own money first then claim it from my mum. ~~WTF is she thinking~~ but she dared to only give my sister two five cents for her recess? WTH do you think she can buy with two five cents? my sister didn't eat a single ~~shit~~ thing that day! this really made the whole family very angry.

for her working attitude on housework, that was so much a big headache than a help. she will find almost everyway to slack. if no one notice, she'll not wash the toilet. and the noodles that was prepared for the children are always flawed. she will purposely put in more effort on preparing for my mum and uncle and give the children sub-standards food to eat. (well, coz the one who pays the maid is the adults) how can we leave yuan yuan to such a person? there was even instances where she never bath yuan yuan the whole day! the whole day lehz! waliew.

among all the maid that we have hired, she is with the worst attitude. so really, we cant leave yuan yuan to her. so we have to send her away. so since my dad is back, we have no maid at all. and things are getting a little messy here and there (coz i can't be a full time maid), but it's ok. we are planning to get another maid, so for now, we'll just have to settle the things ourselves.

I'm depressed now...

2007-02-08T16:05:00.000+08:00

it never ever crossed my mind that something so devastating can happen around me. who will know that it can REALLY happen? i was so shocked to hear the news about it. no... i never will want to believe such a thing when told by a third party. if it really happen, then she would have told us. but then, there was no news about it. and when i got to know about the news from veron today, it was only too hard to accept. no, it was just unacceptable. but the news just turn out to be true when i went to her blog. i almost cried at my workplace. no, i did shed tears.

WTH. how can this happen, and it is just all of the sudden. she must be very depressed now. but i couldn't call her up now. i'll just end up crying with her. and i couldn't do that when i'm in office. i am trying so hard to hold back my tears now, while i'm typing this blog in my office. WTS. i hate this. i just hope time would turn to six o'clock now so i can just cry out.

who will know... who will know... life can just end so quickly, so unexpectedly.

i want to cry

now

Sian Day

2007-02-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today, my supervisor is on MC. you may think that it is a good news as there is no one to monintor my actions and that i can slack when ever i like. you are wrong!

there is only two customer service officer in our company - my supervisor and i ONLY! which would mean that today i will have to handle ALL CALLS MYSELF! This is perhaps the worst day (other then the first day) of my working life.

i was like so busy alone dealing with all the ~~idiotic~~ customers calling in to me. furthermore, there is like especially significant number of ~~naggy~~ ~~irritating~~ long-winded customers today. They didn't allow me to talk and kept ~~scolding~~ talking! and there are like multiple calls calling in today! they like flood my line. the moment i put down the phone, and before i finish recording details of the previous calls, another call came in. ~~WTH!~~

some of them are like so ~~disgusting~~ ~~vulgar~~ uneducated la, kept scolding me like nobody's business. i can totally understand their point of view, and i also understand that they are just scolding the company or the service, not me. but can they be more civilized? can they be more understanding? i'm like trying to help them as much as possible and there they are scolding ~~the bloody shit out of~~ me. URGH!

tough day. sianz... Apple may you get well soon...

So Far So Good

2007-01-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

well, now my life is back to a mundane process with nothing very exciting to talk about - the life of a normal office working adult. briefly speaking, i can just summarise my life as follows: mondays to fridays working 9am to 6pm, tuesdays and fridays having Jap lessons 715pm to 945pm, saturday go SPH, sunday do 校园笔记. simple right? haha. so my life has little special stuff to talk about now...

BTW, yesterday i went out with forest to shop for CNY clothes. sad to say, we couldn't find much clothes that we can choose from. well, of course there are a lot of clothes down at orchard, but we still need to consider both the design and price. and after considering these two important factors, it is equivalent to not having any choice. haiz... life is like that. so in the end i only managed to buy a jeans and a top, while forest only managed to get a demin skirt and a white top that she's afraid that she may quarantine it easily when she finds better clothes.

there is a high chance that i will have to go out and buy clothes again. lucky for the remaining sundays, i do not need to draw 校园笔记, as i've already finished drawing for the month. hehez...

So Tired

2007-01-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

welcome to the world of the working adults. haiz... life is like that... for once i was dying because i couldn't find a job, now i was dying coz i got a job. really, all the while i know that money isn't that easy to earn. and now, after working for 3 days, i finally realise that money is indeed hard to earn. i'm really tired. maybe because my engine was down for too long a period that when i try to start it now, it couldn't give me enough power.

in addition, yesterday was the first japanese lesson that i took after i start working. it's damn tiring for me. i was stoning for majority of the time. haiz... ok, i wouldn't complain more for my own choice. it was expected for this to happen. maybe if i could just turn my body clock to sleep at 10pm everyday, things would have been better. today i didn't go out with the CFF people. surprized? haha... i was too tired. maybe i'll do that next week.

think i'll stop here. i wonder how many typo error have i made... i'm sleeping after i've finished drawing another 3 more 校园笔记. well, coz SPH is going on an early leave for CNY so i've to send in more.

btw, i've received notice that the A level results are going to be released on the 9th of February. that's fast... ... ...

First day working

2007-01-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

phew... today i woke up at around 630am, even earlier then my brother. haha. well, i took my own sweet time to prepare myself. this is like the first official job i had in my whole life la. i'm like so damn nervious and really stressed. left my house at about 815am. according to my online research on the routes that i can take from my house to work, i realise the fastest way to get there is actually taking MRT to commonwealth and transfer 147, 196 or 198. all in all the total in-vehical time is only 24 mins. however, even i've taken into consideration a buffer time of 15 mins, i still reach my destined bus stop at 903am. and i am supposed to reach my company by 9am. shit, being late on the first day would be the last thing that i want it to happen on me. however, lucky thing is that my supervisor, Apple, isn't there yet. hehez. so maybe tomorrow i would have to leave house by 8am.

well, today is a damn stressed day. my company is the gateway for mobile content providers. don't understand? let me give a simple example. i'm sure you know that one of the many mobile serivces available is daily horoscope right? so this daily horoscope is called mobile contents. and the providers of these contents are normally (or all of them) based overseas. so in order to come into singapore, as in provide this service to singapore mobile holders, they will need a channel to do that. and my company is the platform for them. they would have to pass through us, then we will pass to the telecom, and then the telecom will send it to the users. ^_^ which means we are the prolocutor for the overseas content providers, and so we are in-charged of providing customer assistances to Singaporean users.

and my job is as a customer service officer, where i'll answer ALL enquires for all users of our company's content users. which means to say i'll have to know all the content provided, and how they work. so for today, i only get to know 3 big services, and there i am receiving and calling customers. T_T can you imagine how stressed am I? i'm SO NERVOUS! can die. then the worse part is when the costomers call in and scold the bloody hell out of you, because they claimed they didn't signed up for the serivce. -_-''' people, please don't get 'cheated' by this. in the first place, we won't activate the service unless you send a message of a certain keyword to activate the subscription. you don't want to pay then don't send that stupid message in the first place! btw, normally, they will indicate a price at the end of the message saying sgd2/sms. which means singapore dollar 2 per sms. AND if you receive any promotional message like "want to know your daily horoscope? messge your horoscope to ***** now! sgd2/sms. " don't get confused! the 'free message' does not mean the horoscope, it means the promotional message itself is free. now you know why the customer service officers kept getting scolded now? haha.

and i've to face all this on my first day lehz. haiz. nvm. majority of them will only require me to just terminate their service, which i can just unsubscribe for them through the system. there are of course more complicated cases where they will insist they aren't going to pay as they insisted they didn't apply for it... so that's for me to solve and for you to think what i have to do... hehez. 商业机密.

so that's basically my job. i still got a lot of other services to learn. tomorrow 加油！

50th Post

2007-01-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

haha, just realize this is my 50th post. hehez.

anyway, today i woke up damn early. think at about 6am. it's been a long time since the last time i woke up at this time. well, this is because i'm waiting for a call from hillgrove at 7am to confirm whether i have to go relief teach. well, in the end they didn't call me, and i woke up at this time for nothing.

at about 9am plus, hillgrove called me, asking me whether i can relief teach tomorrow. ha ha. just the day when i will start working, and of course i said no. my brother told me that i'll have 90% of a chance to relief teach his class as a lot of his teachers are on MC. HA HA. sad to say, i can't do relief teaching for them. think i don't have affinity with his class. lolz.

so today, i had my 3rd japanese lesson. i reached orchard quite early, as i was thinking this might be the last time i can reach orchard early. from tomorrow onwards, i will be working from monday to friday, 9am to 6pm. i will need to travel at least 30 mins to reach orchard from my company. so the earliest i can reach orchard will only be 630pm, and i still need to gobble my food to rush for the japanese lesson that starts at 7pm. haha.

i'm quite nervious about tomorrow. think i'll sleep now to make sure i am at tip top condition tomorrow! hehez. good luck to me!

I've Found A Job!

2007-01-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

Yeah! just this morning, recruit express called me. it's not david, but another girl from recruit express. it's the MNC that provides mobile contents, they are employing me! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! i was like SO happy la. yeah!!! it's a customer service officer, $7/hr and located at Alexandra road. think going down there is qutie ok for me la. now i don't care so much la, i got a job, and that's good enough for me. ^_^ i'm starting work this wednesday.

anyway, hillgrove secondary called me just now. they MIGHT need a relief teacher tomorrow. -_-''' well, since i'm only starting work on wednesday, i don't mind going to relief teach first. but they will only give me the answer like tomorrow 7am?! haiz. so i say ok lo. haha. yeah. today is a happy day.

Busy Busy Busy

2007-01-21T10:16:00.000+08:00

after the meeting at SPH yesterday, i realize that it will be a very very busy year for me ahead. T_T i won't elaborate them here, but i just want to say that no matter what, i must find a job that can work during weekdays. or else my mum would kill me.

just now we had a slight arguement. she wants me to help her do stuff (as usual like typing some documents for her or teach my sister spelling), and i can't as i haven't even started sketching the 校园笔记 that i am suppose to hand in today! then she started saying that i'm always busy with my SPH stuff and 校园笔记, where do i find time to work? WTH. she's just not happy that i cant help her, and she's rubbing salt on the fact that i'm still unemployed. so i just say "if you don't want me to participate in SPH, just say it now, and i'll stop it now, and never do anything related to it ever again." she hesitated a bit, just says "you are old enough to think for yourself." and walks away. WTH. to her, every

hmmm, let me update a bit from where i've left. On thursday, there is another interview as a customer service officer after my SPH scholorship interview right? yap, so the interview went on quite smoothly. $7/hr, 9am - 6pm monday to friday, down at alexandra road. it's an MNC company specialize in providing mobile content serivces, like horoscopes etc. so my job is to be the customer service officer where i'll answer customers' enquires. i'll only know the result on monday, which is tomorrow. T_T

so on friday, i've 3 interviews, 2 of which clashes. the first job is introduced by forest. it is at the hospital that she is working at. well, $6/hr, and working 9am-6pm at Tan Tock Seng Hospital, down at Novena. went down for the interview in the morning. think it's quite ok la. but the problem is that the interviewer said she'll call me yesterday. but i didn't receive any calls. i've even rejected an interview to be a graphic designer yesterday, but end up i just put too much hope on it.

ok, then for the afternoons, i've two interviews that clashes. one is david's offer and the other is as a printer tester. after much consideration, i've decided to reject david's offer as a so-called graphic designer job at IEsingapore. however, upon calling david, he convinced me to go to that interview. haiz... for the printer tester interview, it is good that the person decides to give me another interview on monday, tomorrow, at 130pm. ^_^ back to the david's offer, sad to say, i'm definately not what they are looking for. they are looking for at least 12 months temp staff! go die la david, you sabotage me. so i go there, SO PAISEH LA! T_T haiz... david should thank that the interviewer looks quite handsome, or else i would have killed him for making me go down there. >_<

after the interviews, i was slacking at Bugis junction, killing time for my japanese lesson to start. japanese lessons is as fun as the last one. matsumoto sense is still as cute and funny. haha.

yesterday, saturday, is just another SPH day dealing with a lot of stuff. T_T

today, it is just another day for 校园笔记.

okz, after so many interviews, let me analyse on the jobs i have.
1) Telemarketeer @ Toa Payoh selling credit cards (rejected)
2) Customer Service @ Sindo Building Genting Lane, for bouquet and gifts company (unknown, they are supposed to call me for a training, however, after waiting for the whole week, i didn't even receive a call from them. so i don't know whether i should go down tomorrow to work)
3) Telemarketeer @ Panesula Plaza 27th storey (they didn't call me)
4) David's Offer as a 'graphics designer' (can i say i was rejected?)
5) Admin @ Yishun working till end of July. (I can't work till that long, so i reject coz need to sign contract for that period)
6) Printer Tester @ Harbour Side Industrial Building 2. (Haven't Interview)
7) Customer Service @ Mobile Content MNC. (Still Pending, tomorrow then know results)
8) Hospital Assistant @ Tan Tock Seng Hospital. (they didn't call me)

so, can i say that i still haven't find any jobs yet? T_T hey, if you all have read this, can you all help me decide whether i should go to work for the bouquet and gifts tomorrow or should i wait for the mobile contents MNC and go for the interview as a printer tester?

Just finish SPH interview

2007-01-18T11:58:00.000+08:00

yo people. i'm now at SPH... i've just finished my interview for the sph scholorship. T_T personally think i don't know what i am talking about. just blabber my way through the whole interview... haiz... don't know whether i'll get it or not la. haiz... feeling depressed right now...

this morning, david called me. he says that the interview is postponed to tomorrow, same time. haiz... don't feel confident at all la. haiz... he tells me that i need to go do some 'homework'. i need to find out about the mission of the company, then see how can i make it's website better, and bla bla bla. also, i just need to know some basic html to work this. shit la. i know nothing lo. i just know how to make blog by copying some html codes lo. haiz... i don't feel like going for it lehz... haiz...

then while i was waiting for my turn for the interview, i received a call from june, another recruit express agent. she says that there is a customer service assistant position down at alexandra road, paying $7/hr. she says she is arranging the interview at 2pm today. so i think no harm trying la. haiz... looks like i really have to go lo. haiz... very sad lehz. don't know why i'm feeling depressed now. haiz...

sucky la. now i'm still deciding on whether to go down for the printer tester interview or the david recommended graphic designer interview tomorrow. haiz. WTH.

Back from interview...

2007-01-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

phew... today is a tiring day. the interview for admin at yishun went on quite smoothly. well, it's a multi-task admin staff. as it is a small company specializing in ship air-conditioning service, one staff have to do a lot of things. basically my job as an admin include faxing, filing, issuing of PO, DO etc, data-entry, worker's punch card manager, office inventory checker, call manager, customer service bla bla bla. basically a combination of all admin work, plus a little bit more of logistics.

9am to 5pm, monday to friday, 9am to 12noon on saturday. so it is a 5.5days per week. there is a high possibility of having OT. salary based on monthly, if they want me then they will call me down for a second interview and tell me about the salary. OT charged at 1.5 times of the salary. they will require me to stay up till end of july. well, as the admin i am taking over is going on maternity leave. (her stomach is already quite big when i see her today). yap. this job is quite ok only. personally i still prefer the customer service job at the bouquet and gift company. think this job is too long a period. they require a signing of contract to ensure that you stay till the end of july, which may or may not clash with my university admission. so yah, i cant promise my commitment and they know it. so think they won't want me or what la. i still prefer the bouquet and gift company de. ^_^

later in the afternoon, i went to peninsula plaza for another interview as a telemarketeer. well, think this is the lousiest job that i have ever interviewed. they let me fill in a form (normal particulars form la) then the manager came out and 'interview' me. all she said was "basically your job is to call people in for interview la. so the work will start at february. i still have other candidates to interview, so i'll get back to you for a briefing if you are recruited. so yah, you wait for my call la! bye!" end of interview. stupid la. made me fly 27 storeys up the building till i want to vomit. waliew. even if they want me i also don't want them lo. everyday sit the lift up and down for 27 storeys i don't puke also die liao. haiz.

then i made my way back to bukit batok. on my way, another company called me for an interview as a printer tester. yah, my job is to test printer. haha. think i found this in the newspaper so i just send my resume lo. lolz. well, the person asked me to go down for interview this friday at 130pm. it's at harbour front that side. think need to take 188 down.

when i reach bb mrt, another call came in asking me to go for interview. it's for the job of a graphic designer. the job scope for that is that i'll be designing advertisement for big company. the job is paid by per project, depending on the difficulty of the project. my boss will throw me the contact number of the client and let me liaise with the client myself. i can work at home and need not report to the office at all. in addition, i will also have to liaise with the printing company itself to ensure the quality of production of my advertisement. the clients are mostly companies like LG, TAKA jewellery etc. yah, big big companies la.

so the person wants to meet me down at Seng Kang mrt NOW!!!! shitty la. people just reach bukit batok from cityhall mrt then you ask me go seng kang. so i told him that i'll consider. personally, i think this job is ok. however, i think i am not up to the job la. i think there are plenty of good artist outside to draw the advertisement. i'm already not very confident of myself to draw really nice drawings, much less say earn money through drawing. besides, i am definitely not equipped to liaise with the client. i don't know the market price, i don't know the market situation, i know nothing la. this job may be what i want, but i'm not up to it la. besides, i also don't want to go all the way down to seng kang mrt. so yah, i rejected it. haha...

after my day's agenda end, i went home. so now blogging. haha. by the way, i've received a call from the admin position at yishun just now. yah, while i'm typing my blog. they want me to go down for an interview tomorrow at 230pm! tomorrow i'm already packed with SPH schlorship interview in the morning and graphic designer interview (recommended by david de) in the afternoon. so i tell them i couldn't make it. upon some arrangement, they told me to go down at 9am on friday. oh man. like i've mentioned just now, i prefer the customer serive at bouquet and gift company de. then i've already tried to say i can't on thursday (a bit obvious like finding excuses liao) but they still give me an interview on friday. haiz. nvm la. think the most important interview is tomorrow. and by this friday, i would have to decide which job i want liao. by the way, i've already reject the telemarketeer job (the one selling credit cards through phone de).

Hajimemashite!

2007-01-17T07:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday, after my call from ocarina, i set off to the interview at Genting lane.

before i set off, i've received a call from SPH! not about my student correspondent club thing, but about the sph scholarship! they asked me to go for the first interview this thursday at 10am! YEAH!!!!! OMG, i thought the sph people will no longer bother about my application maybe until my a level results come out! OMG! hahaha... though i am quite nervous about that, i think i still give it a try. no harm yeah?

ok, so i continue to set off to genting lane. well, took me about 1 hour on bus, not including waiting time. i have to take bus 66 to macperson road and transfer to 125 and alight at Tannery Road. haiz, long journey. however, i personally felt that the job is quite ok. it's a customer service job whereby i will be in-charged of answering calls from clients and answer to their enquires. the company specializes in bouquet and gifts, so i'll be also in-charged of taking down orders. at some times, a little telemarketing may be required, but that's not the main part of my job.

$6/hr, 9am to 6pm mondays to fridays, sometimes may need to come back on saturday from 9am to 12noon depending on the rotating of shifts. during peak period, there may be a need to do OT. though the rate for OT is still $6/hr, the company will call in dinner for the staff, and if it is later than 9pm, transport fares will be reimbursed. sounds quite good yeah? think the only bad thing about this job, other than the distance, is the fact that the job only last until 28th of february.

hmmm... that's quite short. however, i think if you have good performance there, they might ask you to stay. that's what the recruit agents told me. well, ocarina told me that the job she offered me does not have any extensions. so i don't know whether should i try this short term job... maybe i'll consider...

then after that, i went home to help my mum type my uncle's resume. on my way, david called me saying that he had sent my resume to be a graphic designer. then the interview for that is on thursday 230pm. (thursday again) looks like it's going to be a busy day for me on thurday. he had also sent me the job requirements and what should i bring. to my horror, i've found out that the company requires general diploma students that requires web portal knowledge and bla bla bla. think i'm furthest away from the candidate that they want to find. furthermore, it's a goverment organization, IEsingapore lehz. hello? me? go there? waliew, david you sabotarge me la.

i called david immediately and tell him the problem. he said that he told the people there about me with experiences of only drawing comics and bla bla bla (just a read off from my resume of what i can do), but they still want to interview me. so david says just give it a try la. waliew... die la. give what try? i don't even qualify a single stuff down there la. let them shoot me questions that i all say don't know? so paiseh. T_T haiz, looks like i really have to go there on thursday.

later in the evening, i went for my FIRST JAPANESE LESSON! so cool la! haha. ohayo! hajimemashite! watashi wa shirai desu. dozo yoroshiku! watashi wa shingaporu jin desu. anata mo shingaporu jin desu ka? haha! simple things to learn but so fun la! my jap teacher is matsumoto sense! she is so funny and cartoon la. really enjoyed her lessons! ^_^ of course there are homeworks to do. we are like primary school kids practising penmanship when we are writing the japanese hiragana, one of the japanese writing scripts. there are 3 different japanese writing scripts, but hiragata is the most important and commonly used script.

today i've got another 2 interviews to go. one is 10am at yishun for an admin job, and the other is 230pm at peninsula plaza for a telemarkteer job. T_T let's go see which is better ba!

Another Interview today

2007-01-16T09:59:00.000+08:00

just now, ocarina just called me. she says her company is looking for temporary admin clerk for the period 6th February to 26th February. unknown salary and working hours. really THANK YOU ocarina! i'm so grateful that she helps me to keep a look out of the jobs available. ^_^ however, i think the period is too short. it's like if you want me to choose between this and the telemarketeer's job, i would choose the latter. well, the telemarketeer's job would mean i don't have to look for any more jobs before my admission to Uni, but for the admin clerk, i have to. so, thanks anyway orcarina. i really really appreciate that. :)

so for today, i'm going down all the way to Genting lane for an interview as a Customer Service officer. think the only think i don't like about this job is that i've to travel over an hour just to reach there. nevermind, i'll go and check it out...

Went for an interview today

2007-01-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

just this morning, i've received a call from one of the companys that i've sent my resume to to go for an interview today. haha. it's for a telemarketeer job down at toa payoh.

then just before i set off, i've received another call from recruit express. it's not david, but another agent by the name tong. well, i didn't realize that i've send my resume to recruit express, but nvm la. she wants to interview me so i'll have to go down after my interview for the telemarketeer job.

so for that, i went down to the office. the name of the company is Abacus Investment. my job is to do telesales, and selling credit cards. yap, yvon it's your rival. haha. the working hours are 9am to 7pm, monday to thursday, and 9am to 6pm on friday. basic pay is $1200 with commission depending on our performance. during training periods, i'll will only be paid a training allowance of $30 per day, and the training period depends on my learning speed. they have also agreed to allow me to leave at 630pm on tuesday, with half an hour less from my lunch break, so that i can attend my japanese lessons on tuesday at 715pm. sounds quite nice. the only thing about it is that you have sales target to meet EVERYDAY. so everyday's gonna be damn stress kind in the office. my training will commence on next monday. so for now, i still can consider whether i want to work there. heard from my brother that telemarketing is a damn bad experience for him. not sure what but i'll discuss with my mother tonight.

by the way, if anyone is interested in working as this job, they still have vacancies so just tell me then i direct you all there.

then after that, i went down to ngee ann city's recruit express. lucky it's another branch of recruit express in ngee ann city, so i wont meet david. think it will be damn paiseh to let my job agent find me looking for another job agent. haha. but the more job agent i have, i would mean more chances for me right? see who can job match me first ba.

yapz, nothing much liao. now i'm sending more resumes. tomorrow i'll have another interview as a customer service officer. hope the working condition is better. hehez.

OH! my jap lessons start tomorrow! i'm so excited about it! ^_^

Miscellanea

2007-01-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

well, still haven't got a job. However I've got an interview for as a telemarketeer coming Thursday.

On Friday i went to IKEA with my mother to get a new sofa. Our 2 seater at home has one big hole already! so we really had to get a new one. IKEA's having really cheap sofas now. there is this red sofa for only $149 and black sofa bed for only $199. after considering the colours that can suit our living room, we decided to get the black sofa bed (well, there is only one colour for cheap sofas). Anyway, it will be delivered to our house on the 17th this month.

Then after that, I went to meet joy as she've made some agar agar for me! YEAH! it's really really delicious!!! oh my god, joy, really, next time got any testing of food to do i would be really glad to do that for you! haha..

later in the evening, after my sister is back from school, we went to my grandmother's house. well, my sister misses her 3 months old cousin. normally, we will visit my grandmother on a weekend. however, my aunt would bring the baby out to her mother's house for the weekend, which means my sister can't see the baby! haiz. so, we've decided to go on friday, where the baby will be at my grandmother's house. we had a nice talk with everybody over at my grandmother's house. we sat on the table, eating my grandmother's delicious dishes and drinking red wine till late. think we went home at about 12midnight? yah, it's just quite late.

so when we reached home, our new maid had already slept. my new maid's name is called Siti. well, it's quite difficult for me to communicate with her as her english really CMI. but the most disturbing problem is that she... she has... she has BO. and i share the same room with her. after i reached home from my grandmother's house, I opened my room... ... ... and closed it... ... ... then i went to tell my brother. he came over and opened my room... ... and closed it too... ... ... then he said "good luck to you" and went to sleep. didn't know how i survive every night. did i really fall asleep or fainted?

anyway, saturday, I went to SPH as usual. there is a meeting for chu ban. it's BORING. it's also the collection date for donation items. we are having a donation drive for Mary Mount this year. it is a single parent child care centre where the children will reside at the centre and the parent will only visit on weekends. the funding of Mary Mount is based solely donation. so, SPH's student correspondent club has decided to adopt the organization.

On the 11th of february, there will be a fancy fair where we will sell all the donated items at very low prices. All revenues will be donated to Mary Mount. though there is only a few people reading my blog, i still ask those who have read this to try to come down to SPH on that day to buy some stuff that you like. of course, there is not only second hand items, there are also limited edition CDs to buy, or what ever stuff (you see, SPH gets a lot of free CDs as listening samples, haha) so come down on that day!!!

ok, back to saturday. it's the collection date that day. and i've also asked my family to give donate some sellable stuff. we have an old computer and a lot of comics (from my brother). so, my mum went to borrow a van to drive the stuff to SPH. yap, so i went to SPH early for a boring meeting first, then i'll get the stuff from my mum there. who knows, my mum not only brought the stuff to SPH, she brought an additional package - my sister. T_T sad to say, my sister's sticking with me throughout the rest of the day.

yap, so i went out with 3 of the older people of CFF - clever, wilson and sam for dinner, with my sister too of course. lucky the 3 of htem are great entertainers for my sister. so generally, my sister also had fun. lolz.

today, send another tonnes of resume. oh PLEASE! at least give me an opportunity to have an interview. T_T yap, then drew 校园笔记. it's so hard to draw this time's XYBJ. there is a lot of details. >_< nvm, treat it as a form of training.

Still... unemplyed...

2007-01-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

i've sent millions of resume out, may god bless me...

just now, David from recruit express called me. well, did i mentioned about him here? ok, so let's talk about him ba...

so N years ago, when i was still a maid and it was just shortly after my graduation night, my brother's friend was looking for lucido.l promoter for weekends, $8.50 per hour at bugis. i think that was great as i could just do housework duirng weekdays and work during weekends, so i applied for it. i typed my resume out and send it to my borhter's friend. in the end, it directed to Recruit Express's David.

this is because my borther's friend is actually helping David out of kindness to find people to get jobs in recruit express. in the end, lucido.l didn't want me, and david decides to be my job agent - to help me find jobs. but sad to say, i couldn't give him any promise on the jobs that i can work. at that time, i was a maid who could only work once a week, or start working only on january. plus i was still a pending candidate for my SPH schlorship (though till now i'm still of an unknown status) so he offered me many jobs but i couldn't take. in the end, his offers start to decline, and till zero.

i thought he gave up on offering me jobs. Though i was urgently looking for a job now, i didn't want to 厚着脸皮 to find him. after troubling him during my maid period, it's quite embarassing to still ask him to help me. however, it was such a coincidence that he called me today, and he offered me a job. it's as a temp graphic designer! of course i'll say yes to anything. haha. so he sent my resume to the company.

another hope for me. may it not be an empty hope...

oh, by the way, i've forgot to mention about the real reason why i didn't want to work with the MLM thing. where do you think the company get so much money to pay it's workers? upon reaching the highest position, you are paid a commission of 40%. other than your commission, the sale of one product has to feed a lot of levels of people. which means to say, in fact, about 70% or more of the price of the product is used to pay everyone. in addition, you still have the production cost to cover. after everything, the remaining will ONLY be the company's profit. how will a company survive if it has such high cost to maintain? the only conclusion i can draw is that the product cost is only less than 5% of the selling price. and these all make sense! you get paid such high wage because you are exploiting the consumers' money!!! regardless of whether the product is really beneficial to the consumer or not, i think it is morally and ethically unacceptable to sell at such prices. if you think that it's perfectly ok to earn this kind of money, fine. ignts.

Neoprints with CFF ppl again

2007-01-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

Haha... neoprints again. this is taken on the last saturday of last year... hehez... yapz, i know it quite a long time ago, but at least i put them up ok. must let MAO see ma... hia hia hia...

MLM

2007-01-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

just now i went for a job interview. MJ introduced me there. i really thought it would be the best job that i will be getting, but who knows things aren't what i've expected in there... it's a MLM business. those who don't know what it is, let me just explain a bit of it here...

MLM is multi-level marketing. it works with a marketing strategy called Networking. put it in a simple manner, you will have to sell products, normally health products. you sell them, you get commission. however, it is not only about sales. upon reaching a certain sales target, you will get 'promoted', whereby your commission will increase and you are allowed to have downlines, which means to say you can get your friends in to help you sell the products. and not only will your friends get commission like you do before, you will also get overwrite from what they sell, which is normally the difference between your commission and your friends'.

for example, you earn a 5% commission before promotion, 10% after promotion, and your friends come in as your down lines earning 5% commission. so whenever your friends sell a product, they will get the 5% commission and you as their 'head' will earn another 10%-5%=5% overwrite of the product they sell. in other words, you earn money without doing anything.

of course, when your downlines sell enough to get you promoted, you earn higher commissions, which means higher overwrites. this process can be accelerated when your downlines sell enough to get themselves promoted, and they themselves have downlines, and their downlines keep selling and promoting and get new downlines, and your money keeps rolling in.

sound tempting? you might be thinking it is the easiest way to earn quick BIG money. coz normally, the products are REAL expensive, $2000 plus... so calculate the commission and all the overwrites you get. you'll get rich in no time... well, not to forget one thing, you are a downline yourself. someone must have introduced you to this business in the first place. you see, you want quick money, so you put in damn lots of effort to get lots and lots of downlines and earn big big bucks. but your 'head' will be there shaking his leg and counting the money that you've earned for him, without doing anything. what's worse, your 'head' is also a donwline. feels bad? think that it is not fair? you are doing it yourself. think about having your friends as your downlines. do you feel good? having to have your own friends sweat for you?

i hate this. you can say that i'm stupid for giving up the opportunity to earn quick BIG cash. so what if i can earn so much money? on an individual view, it would only mean that i'll only suffer at the beginning stage, and after that, money will keep rolling in. but do you know what those money mean? it will mean your downlines are suffering, and you are earning money coz of their sufferings. and the more people who suffers, the more money you have. that sounds so wonderful isn't it?

i'm not against this system. it is perfectly logical that you get overwrites when your downlines earn, coz in some ways you gave them the opportunity to come in here and earn money, and you also provide them the training on how to sell the product. however, it gets irritatingly disgusting when you depend solely on your downlines for money, which means to say you don't sell the products yourself anymore. i personally think that MLM will work if everybody do the selling, and not only the newbies who struggle to get themselves promoted. but who will want to work when you can get free money? this is stupid.

so today, upon knowing the nature of my job, i have decided to not take the job. say i'm stupid. yes maybe... there is a 18 years old guy over there who could afford sports car but still getting a driving license. and a 21 year old girl who is in university now and with rolling income while doing nothing except for studying. she's driving a sports car by the way. so? do you think this can last forever?

2007-01-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

yo ppl. finally i'm free from my maid duties and i am officially unemployed. T_T but anyway, i've already send out many SOS so hope they'll give me some help in getting a job.

another good news, the january hui xun is finally coming to an end. my part are all done. (well, that's what i'm told but i'm not sure whether they will keep their word.) i'm finally really really getting a little relaxed now. haha. though a busy start for the year, it lasted shorter than expected. ^_^

hmmm, now i'm working really really hard on my drawings. trying to improve my XYBJ especially. hope you all can see some difference.

BTW! i've decided to take on Jap lessons! (erm, actually i forgot whether i've mentioned it here, but just tell you in case) it'll start next week, every tuesday and friday from 715pm till 945pm... it's at town area, so i've got direct bus there. i'll complete my Basic 1 on the 23rd of February. well, of course i didn't take the lesson alone. Peixuan is attending too! so yah, we both will learn jap together!

New Maid coming tomorrow!!!

2007-01-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

yo ppl. so sorry that my blog updates once in a full moon. But not to worry now! I've brought good news! my new maid is coming tomorrow! (provided the administrative stuff all goes well!) which means to say that i'm free from tomorrow onwards! (not to mention that i'll be really unemployed with nothing to do now.) this also means that i will have ample time to blog! hehez...

by the way, another good news here. I've found my HANDPHONE!!! YEEPEE!!! it's left at the SPH. I didn't know how did it get onto the hands of others, but i'm pretty glad that ppl whom i know picked them up! and they have knidly returned back to me, scratchless! haha! though i've already renewed my sim card, i'm just glad that the phone is alright. (well, who wants to lost ALL the contacts yah?) hehez... so you can message me now!

that's all now!

A Bad Start for a New Year

2006-12-31T18:50:00.000+08:00

1st i was so busy with housework, next i was down with a few days to complete hui xun, then my maid didn't came back, followed by my mum resigned to handle the maid issue, and NOW! i lost my handphone AGAIN!!!!!!!!! it was the second time this thing happened and i don't want to elaborate on it here. i just want to inform you that don't bother to message me for the time being. maybe after i get a second hand phone and after i renewed my sim card. yah...

Guess Where am I now???

2006-12-17T16:08:00.000+08:00

hehe... i'm at SPH now!!! well, i need to do something so i'm here! still waiting for some stuff to be done so i'm blogging now!

anyway, i just update a bit on what i did yesterday. i went to a 庆功宴 for Fun报Party committee members. and ironically, i am NOT a member of the Fun报Party Committee... hehez... so why can i go to the 庆功宴? haha, just because i'm in 中央, that's why i get the chance to attend the celebration. we went to a Hong Kong tea house at Kallang area, the food there is really delicious!!! ^_^ i think it is the best buffet ever given by SPH for celebrations like this. after that, we went back to SPH to do 漫画达人. so basically, it's all about SPH yesterday, as usual. then after that, i went to Otori Japanese Restaurant to find my sister there. hehe, i left my sister there for my uncle to take care. after that, just went home.

so today, i'm back at SPH for 出版 stuff. as usual, other than saturdays and during my mum's off days, i need to take care of my sister. so i've to bring her down here again. i bought her cha siew rice from the coffee shop opposite SPH as her lunch then left her to run about herself. it's a sunday, so you won't have to worry that she will disturb the working staff there. hehez... now, lucky there is a kind girl over here who can play with my sister. good for her as i'm busy with my stuff. (yah, here blogging though...)

when i'm back home, i doubt i would have time to go online anymore. T_T my absence from home has already left tonnes of housework to keep me busy... yah... think that's all now... byez...

Neoprints that i took with my sister again...

2006-12-16T02:40:00.000+08:00

A lot to update... T_T

2006-12-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

okz, sorry for not updating my blog for a long time... well, please read about my situation in my Clog, don't want to re-write everything again as I'm really SO tired now... T_T

anyway, I'll try to update as much as possible... starting from last saturday... (sorry if I couldn't write too much details or if there is a typo error as I'm really falling asleep liao)

Saturday (9th December)
Today is the official day that I'm back to my work at SPH since I got back from china. well, there is damn lot's of things to do. the most important thing is my duties as a 出版 committee member. my duties are kind of different from the tradditional 出版 member as I am an Artist and not a journalist. normally, the 出版 would be a journalist who is in-charge of correcting the language and format of the internal magazine 会讯. So, as an Artist, I could not do that. I mean I could do it if I want to but I'm not trained to do this kind of thing, which means to say that in these aspects, I'm kind of useless. however, my duties are important in the sense that because I'm the Artist, I am in-charged of Quality Controlling all comics and photographs for 会讯 AND correcting the Comic Fastfood's produciton of 漫画达人. In addition, I have to draw up proposals for workshops for ALL members (which includes journalist, Artist and photographers). sounds kind of cool yah? well, since i couldn't do the mainstream job of a 出版, I'll have to do all these... lolz...and yah, that day was full of administrative work, so nothing much to talk about...

Sunday (10th December)
Well, if you are wondering who will do the housework when the maid is away the whole day on saturday, it's the maid again. Today, I spent the whole day doing all the unfinished housework left from yesteray. so there is nothing much to talk about here. Don't ask me what my brothers did, there's nothing for me to list.

In the evening, I brought my sister to Jurong East Central. My mum was transferred to the outlet at JEC, so we went there to cheer her up. after that we went to shop a for my sister's school bag. she's going on to primary 1 next year at St. Anthony's Primary School, the same school that all of my brothers and I went. after getting her bag, we had our dinner at JE Entertainment Centre's food court. sadly, we went pass a neoprint shop and there goes the pestering of my sister for it. so we took the neoprints. i'll upload it on the next entry... and yah, that's all for that day...

Monday (11th December)
once again, nothing much today happened. I did housework in the morning, then I went to meet Yvon at our house's market place's KFC for lunch, with my sister with me f course. she needs to return me winter clothes that i'd lent her for the china trip so we met up and catch up a bit. but well, it rained when we wanted to leave, so it just gave us an excuse to talk longer and for me to stay away from housework longer. in the end, still back to reality. haiz...

Tuesday (12th December)
Did i memtion that i'm applying for a schlorship? not at all? ok sorry about that. and well, i applied for a schlorship from SPH. it comes with a bond of 4 years as a journalist after graduation from local university, or 6 years from overseas university. the procedues are as follows: Filling in of Application Form, Writting Test, 1st Interview, 6 months Internship, 2nd Interview and then they'll decide whether they'll want you.

and today, I went to take the writing test. well, i applied for a chinese newspaper so i have to take the test in mandarin. it's just a language test. you are required to write an essay, fill in the correct words, correct the sentences, and translate a passage in 3 hours.

HOWEVER, I need to take care of my sister. no one can take care of her at home, so i need someone to help. luckily, after the written test i have a meeting with my Comic Fastfood people at PeiXuan's house, who lives at Ang Mo Kio. So i just trouble her a bit and drop my sister at her house first then proceed to SPH for the test. poor PeiXuan who has to take on my sister's temperament. (those who know my sister, you'll know what i mean)

anyway, back to the test. I went to the human resource department and had the test. there was another candidate taking the test too but she had an english test. so we both sat there for 3 hours scribbling with pens. the sad thing was, i didnt finish the paper. i missed the essay part and finished the paper early (without the essay part of course). and while i was checking through the paper with ease, I realized the essay's existence, with only 40 minutes left. on shit. in the end, i only managed to finish 2 pages of essay. imagine i could write 6 pages for my essays during chinese composition exams. i'm SO dead.

let's not talk about the doomed. i headed towards Ang Mo Kio to meet JiaMing so that we could go to Peixuan's house together. the rest was just meeting with them for 漫画达人. the january issue of the internal magazine is a newly reformed version, so 中央 have to do it. thus PeiXuan and JiaMing, leaders of Comic Fastfood, and I have to be in-charged of 漫画达人. That's so the sad. but anyway, we did some stuff and planned another meeting on friday, 15th of december. my sister was a prick that day. i really wonder why she always shows her temperament in front of others. when she was alone with me, she's so 乖.

Wednesday (13th December)
Really, there's nothing to talk about unless you want me to talk about housework. -_-''' i'm out the whole day yesterday and so today's my retribution.

Thursday (14th December)
today is a happy day. haha. it's the off day of both my mum and uncle. hehe... which means to say the maid gets an off day today too! (cause they are bringing me and my sister out)

before that, i met forest at about noon time. she also needs to return me my winter clothes that i lent her for the china trip. so i brought my sister to westmall mos burger to have lunch and wait for forest. we did catch up a bit then after that i went home to change to go out... hehez...

we went down to bugis to find my mum, who had set off earlier to do some stuff and then shop at bugis. to compensate us for waiting for her to shop, she treated us to fish & co for dinner. YUM YUM! i ate new york fish and chips. the cheese sauce is really DELICIOUS!!!!!!!! really, go try and you will know that i not exaggerating.

after that, we went to the huge This Fashion store. well, since we have a member card, so we just drop by to see whether we could get something. the thing about This Fashion is that you can only get really nice stuff if you really look carefully. since they are relatively cheaper, my mum likes to go there and fish some clothes. haha. i bought 2 basic top, a jeans and a jacket. yap, and we just went home after that (and of course to do housework)

Friday (15th December)
Finally, i reached friday. phew... as i've mentioned earlier, i've got a meeting with Peixuan and Jiaming at SPH today. and similarly, i need to take my sister along with me. so i went there and bought a mcdonalds kid's meal for my sister as her lunch before proceeding into SPH. at friday weekly's office, i was really afraid that the staff would chase my sister away. however, luckily, there was only 5 staff working there today, and they kind of like my sister a lot! so yah, guessed i'd worried a bit too much. anyway, my sister have night class tonight at 7pm, so i have to leave SPH on time for the class. nthe worse thing is that my sister had SPELLING tonight! and SHE DIDN'T TELL ME!!! so i was teaching her spelling at SPH, while trying to do my stuff... haiz... today is just another tired day, and i'm really tired now. i drew the comic that i put up on my Clog while i was waiting for my sister to be dismissed at 8pm. guess what, my sister got 10/10 for the spelling!!! i'm so proud of her. ^_^

we got home and i was rushing with housework again. lucky my brothers helped a bit with the dishes (as they are the only ones eating at home today) so i just wash, hang, iron and fold the clothes. so tired now... tomorrow i'm still going to SPH. so have to sleep le... NIGHTS!!!

forgot to put up neoprints

2006-12-08T16:44:00.000+08:00

forgot to mention that after the movie yesterday, i took neoprints with my sister!!!
have a look at them!

Went to a Concert Yesterday!

2006-12-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

well, i went to a concert organized by ABC beer yesterday! ^_^ The singers present are Mayday, Pin Guan and some guy from china. well, it's not that unknown-to-me singer is unpopular, but he is an old singer, and majority of the songs sang by him are totally alien to me. imagine Pin Guan is a fan of him since 10 years old...

Anyway, i didn't buy the tickets. I won them on a lucky draw at westmall. my mum was buying something and the receipt can be used to exchange an opportunity to draw. so, i just try my luck as ordered by my mum, and TA-DA! 2 tickets to the concert. my mum actually wants to go with me, however, she couldn't get an off day yesterday. thus, i went with Connie instead.

overall, it was enjoyable (not to mention the initial part where the china guy sings). the greatest fun was when Mayday came out. I stood and jumped throughout the period when they are on stage. really, i was SO HIGH jumping with Mayday's song... haha.

Also, it happens that chang yong is a fan of Mayday. and obviously, he will go and had gone to the concert too. so since it was his birthday today, and i cant meet him today, i just passed him the present yesterday during the concert.

i don't think i've mentioned about my situation now. well, my maid is back to her country for a month. so during this period, i have to stay home as much as possible to do housework and take care of my 6 year old sister. even if i do want to go out, like yesterday, i have to make sure i instruct my lazy brothers to do something and there is at least someone at home to take care of my sister. sad life. so i've missed the opportunity to start work during december. T_T

anyway, it's my mum's off day today. so we, as in my mum, sister and i, went out to catch a movie at orchard. of course, the instructing was left for my mother to do, i can save some breathe. so i watched "Happy Feet", obviously at the demand of my sister. but the show was nice. kind of educational and it actually reflects a lot of our society. the penguins are personify and they show the true human nature.

yah. think that's all for today. having not done any housework today, there seems to be lots to do now. my excuse to take a break is wearing off now. i will talk about my graduation night once i've collected my pictures. ^_^ nights!

My China Trip

2006-12-04T01:56:00.000+08:00

ok, finally i'm done uploading all the photos to photobucket.com. phew! there are damn lot's of pictures for you all to see, so i'll write less and let you all see more pictures. :)

First, on the 20th of november, i took the flight SQ of don't know what flight number at around 4pm plus. the evening fligh would mean that we would reach shanghai at about 10pm. for the first day, i did not follow my school to the hotel in shanghai. i asked for permission to be with my father for one day. this is because the tour on the 21st is around Suzhou, and majority of the places of Suzhou i had been there when i was young. so, i've requested to accompany my father instead. ^_^

blogger's uploading of pictures are of a random manner, so the following pictures are not in chronological order.
this is my sister on the left! cute ah? hehe...
ok, this picture was taken when we are touring 宋城 in Hang Zhou. it's raining there so it was damn cold and we are trying our very best to keep ourselves dry.
forest, me and yvon. we took this at 乌镇, a little town of 2500years of history and currently still shelters a population of 1000 people.
i had a japanese crusine over there with my dad and auntie. cool right?
ok, the purpose of this phot is to see the great difference between two person's dressing in a day of approximately 14~15 degrees. chee mei on the left and mei qi on the right.
oh, we went to visit an Art school. this is the group photo with them. the indian and malay students put up a performance to them thus they wear their own ethnic costumes.
this is the famous 龙井茶园 at the background.
again, a group photo with the Art school dancers.
a performance by the dancers of the Art School.
this is a group photo of our school at 学军中学, different school from the Art School.
this is taken in the building beside 龙井茶园. they do sell tea there. from left, chee mei, me, forest, xiao hui, eveon, jar, yvon, fiona, mei qi.
a photo with Hang Zhou largest lake, West Lake as the background. from left, forest, me, yvon.
again, still at west lake. from lef, evon, chee mei, fiona, me.
group photo at the 龙井茶园.
same west lake.
this is a photo with China's female hero, which i forgot the name.
this is at the entrance of the tallest tower in Shanghai, 东方明珠.
this is on a path way beside the west lake. don't you think that a scene like that is very nice? at this period where leaves start to fall... from left, xiao hui, evon and mei qi.
this is again west lake, from left chee mei, forest, me and yvon.
this is inside the 东方明珠. we are up at about 280 metres above ground. guess what, it took us only a few seconds to reach the top! i almost puke when i got down.
this is taken beside 黄浦江, with the 东方明珠 as the background. the women at the most front is the teacher who is also my room mate, named ShanXin.
group photo at the same place.
once again. this time with mdm soh, another teacher on the left in red jacket, and her daughter is standing on yvon's right.

yah. that's all... ^_^ the trip was kind of fun. really hope we can have such a trip again. no matter what, just hope to keep in contact with everyone after this!

Before going to China

2006-12-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

i'm so sorry that i've been quite busy this few days. after i've came back from China, I'm so busy preparing for my graduation night. phew... anyway, i'm trying to continue from where i had left last time. to avoid a damn long entry, i've decided to separate the entries into before, during and after China Trip.

yah, so before going to China, it's on the 19th of november, sunday, i went to meet my secondary school friends. we met at 1pm at Somerset. had a tea time at Swensens' with sundaes. after that, the usual practice, NEOPRINTS!!! ^_^ i've decided to write less and put up more pictures, so the following are all our pictures!

ok, i'm going to just mention the names once, cause they are all the same and i am too lazy to repeat everything. so at the back row we have hui ting showing three quarters of her face, then stella on her right, followed by Connie. then the largest face with popping eyes on the left is Ai wen then me in the middle. yah.

okz done with this entry cause i'm flying off the next day.

Goodbye my friend

2006-11-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

today i went to SPH. This is the first time i'm going to SPH after my A's. Obviously, there will be a lot of administration matters to do. my absence from SPH activities during this period had left me with lots of things to settle. i shall not talk about the details here.

Anyway, what's the sad thing about today is that Yu Xin is going overseas to study. That will mean that the probability of us seeing her again is like... (touch wood) Anyway, we are going to miss her so much. she's quite active in most of the activities, and really, things wouldn't be the same without her. T_T so we've actually decided to give her a farewell dinner today. and coincidently, her class booked this slot right before us. so, the least we could do is a hug and leaving notes for her. no matter what, the separation now is for the better of your future, and we sincerely wish you all the best. hope you like the yaoi shit i draw for you. (those who don't know what happen please don't misintepret my intensions)

Yu Xin! CFF always supports you!!! 加油！！

in the end, we still went on with the dinner without her. though it's still kind of sad but i think since we've already planned a dinner outing then might as while continue with it. so jia ming, Mao^2, ying^2, lydia, jie sheng and I went to Manhattan at SP. It's really quite nice. they are just like another Fish n Co. but their food are cheaper. though the main character is not there, we still cheers for the best of Yu Xin. actually, the others can meet up with her before she flys on the 23rd. but it's just me who will not get the chance as i'm flying off on monday - 20th. yah, so i gave her a hug right before she left for her class gathering. Bye.

After the dinner, and seems more and more like a usual practice, we went to take neoprints! this is the first time i took neoprints with jie sheng. the prints turn out quite ok. i've scanned them. have a look!

From top left is lydia, jie sheng, Mao^2.
Bottom left is ying^2, me and Jia ming.

Mao^2, Lydia, Jie Sheng
Ying^2, Me, Jia ming

Mao^2, Me
Ying ^2, Lydia, jia ming
Jie Sheng

Ying^2, Lydia, Me
Mao^2, jie sheng, jia ming

look at my new hair. those who haven't seen it can have a look now!

that's all for today. tomorrow i'm meeting Stella, Ai Wen, Connie, Hui Ting and Bei Lei. These names sound new to you? (maybe except for connie) they are my secondary school friends. ^_^ nights!

Administration matters for the China Trip

2006-11-17T18:05:00.000+08:00

well, i'm supposed to stay at home today to pack my luggage. Who knows that the teacher-in-charged called me yesterday and asked me to meet her in school to fill in some forms for the trip. Urgh.

woke up at around 9am in the morning. I couldn't wash my hair so i only washed my body and trying damn hard to not wet my hair. since i have to reach school at around 330pm, i would mean that i couldn't go anywhere far. so, i've decided to go school a little bit earlier so that i can draw my comics in the school library.

before going to school, i was thinking of passing connie the present. since i've forgotten to give it to her yeasterday, i must think of a way to surprize her. and i've decided to send it up to her house personally. ^_^ upon leaving my house, i start messaging her to check whether she's at home. of course, i've to do it implicitly.

My first message goes:
"hey, are you out with your boyfriend now?"
"nup, later. why?"
"well, i've just saw a couple that looks exactly like you two, and they are both sticking together while walking. lolz. anyway, have you done your registration for relief teaching?"
"I thought you message me just to disturb me and him. yah, i went to Karen's house to do it."
"oh, so you are at Karen's house now ah?"
"nope, I watching Goong at home. Think when i finish this disc i will go out. you never go out?"

Bingo. She's at home. haha. that's so clever of me right? lolz. so i went up there and surprized her. hehez. I've managed to complete my task without she being any bit of suspicious.

after that, i'm on my way to school. there's nothing much that have happened then. I've noticed that i was transferred to another group!!! I'm no longer with my friends now. ok, though there are still a few people that i know in my group, but i can't communicate with them!! T_T that's so sad. to add on to that, my room mate was also reallocated. Guess who's my new room mate? A TEACHER! oh god! i am going to share the same room with a teacher!!! how the hell am i supposed to enjoy the trip???

anyway, i've to go pack my luggage now. cya next time...

Reborn my hair today!

2006-11-17T01:47:00.000+08:00

Went to reborn my hair today with Connie. Well, she recommended me this salon where she had her hair cut since young. I can see that Connie's reborn is still quite good till now so I went on with her recommendation. Of course, I feel that the effect was great. I feel that my hair is damn smooth now. haha. I've also cut my fringe short. think it's quite ok. ^_^ Anyway, the reborning session lasted a long 5 hours. In total, for my hair length that has already reached the bra stripe, it cost $140 plus treatment. I think the pricing is ok as for my hair length, the usual price is like $150 without treatment. However, as I am a customer recommended by Connie, the hairdresser offers me the price same as Connie. :)

oh, I've forgotten to brought along Connie's present when I left my house!!! that's so sucky! I apologized to Connie about that but obviously she don't really mind. That's really muddle of me. T_T Maybe I'll pass it to her another day.

After the reborning session, I went over to Orchard to meet Yanni and Soo Pei. They wanted to walk around and get some ideas of what to wear for Graduation Night. Well, We've walked down from Cine down to Takashimaya. There in Taka spells the event of the flase fire alarm, refer to my CLOG.

We've tried quite a number of dresses. Seriously, Yanni and Soo Pei complained about my taboo colours as those colours are actually the colours that suits me. Ok, I know that Joy must be nodding vigorously when it comes to complains about my taboo colours. I've told you that it is ok if you buy something of my taboo colours.

Anyway, today just ended with a totally strained leg. Well, not really that kind of strain but i just mean really really tired leg. i think the amount of sour-wness in my leg is equivalent to that amount in two lemons.

tired today again. haiz... so nights...

AFTER A'S!!!!

2006-11-16T02:37:00.000+08:00

I'm proud to announce that...

My A's Are OVER!!!

Thanks a lot to Joy who has never failed to give me encouragement despite her busy schdule. I'm soooooooo relieved now... finally, after struggling for A's for SO long, it's over... Finally over... how long have i been waiting for this day to come by? however, today was no joke. the last day of my paper was accompanied with 3 mega papers, physics paper 3 in the morning and economics paper 1 and 2 in the afternoons. it stretched all the way from morning to the evening at about 5pm. do you know how horrible is that day? i almost died when i've finished my last paper. of course, i'm too happy at the same time.

i went to meet Joy to buy Connie's present after the last paper. well, i'm so damn tired and i'm practically not thinking... so there's nothing much that had happened. we've just managed to use the most effective method of choosing something; once considered OK, then buy. the decision is immediate and requires no further consideration. thus we've managed to get a bag for connie. then we went home after that.

Oh, tomorrow i'm reborning my hair!!! i totally forgot to tell Joy about it, told you i'm not thinking at all. i'm going with connie as it is her recommendation to that salon. think it should be quite ok. anyway, it'll last the whole afternoon and i'll be meeting yanni and soo pei in the evening. they say they want to spend some time shopping around for graduation night clothes. well, if they want, i don't mind. besides, i will not have time to do that with them as i'm going overseas to china on the 20th!

it will be quite a busy schedule for me this few days before my flight. so i'll have to allocate my time properly for everything... T_T so troublesome... i'm too tired now... nights...

6 Days to GP!!!

2006-10-26T11:14:00.000+08:00

oh shit crap. there's only 6 days left. but i felt obligated to just update abit here. this will definitely be the last time i'm updating my blog, till maybe after A's. My last paper ends on the 15th of November. haha...

ok, let me talk a little about last saturday. I went to watch Death Note!!! well, of course you might be saying that I'm having A's so shouldn't go running about. However, i really really wanted to watch this show. I loved the comic, so i really wanted to see whether the movie is as good. So, i went to watch the show with my 漫画快餐 people. well, as a movie itself, the show is really nice. But from the perspective of a comic reader, i think it somewhat changed too much of the original comic storyline. it depicts Light as a horrible idiot. At least i did hope that Light will win when i read the comic, now, i just hope that that sucker lose in the movie. Futhermore, Light is suppose to be a very very intelligent guy. The movie just fails to give me this feeling; the outward presentation of Light in the movie is just a normal guy with maybe a little wits. This is important because the show is a fight between two intelligent guys. anyway, other than this, as a movie itself it is still ok.

anyway, since then i've been preparing for my A's. Unfortunately, the air-conditioner in the school library on tuesday had me frozen. Now i'm down with influenza. T_T ok, i'm no longer having fever nor sore throat, but it's just the nose that has been running on non-stop with thunder-like headaches affecting my thinking. >_< this is the worst condition that i had ever been in while preparing for cambridge examinations. urgh.

wish me luck. 思蕾加油！

Class BBQ

2006-10-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

Remember that i've just briefly mentioned about my class gathering last saturday? Well, the photos are out. I couldn't put up all but it's better than nothing. besides, i feel that i've already put up quite a lot of photos already.

Well, just a quick recap. Last Saturday our class had our very first successful class gathering. It's a BBQ session at the Bukit Panjang Park. Enjoy the photos!

Ok, this happens to be the first photo. (i randomly upload them.) They are my class guys. well, nothing much to say here. from the right is Yi Sin, Chang Yong and Darren, the hand belongs to Joe Wei.
Oh, this is Soo Pei. i asked her to pose with the 3 satay stick. cool ah?
ok, this photo is taken by Soo Pei, so i'm in there. on my left is Vithya. She is a very quite girl. the 3 guys are (from left) Darren Chang Yong and Joe Wei.
this is me with the delicious sausage! yum yum!
Oh, you see, the BBQ flame is purple when we don't turn on the flash! so cool right!
This is a photo of all the girls. from the left is our form teacher Mrs Leong, Mabel, Kiat Ju, Vithya, Shereen, Me, Soo Pei and Zheng Yun. ^_^
This is the guys. From top left to right is our OM Mr Sum, Darren, Constans, Chang Yong, our Chinese Teacher Mr Yeo. In front of Mr Yeo is again my class form teacher Mrs Leong, then Lionel, Joe Wei and Yi Sin on her right.
Soo Pei and Me!!!
Once again, the delicious sausage (which i'm going to eat it anytime.)
And again my class guys. Darren and Chang Yong in front and Lionel showing the attitude face at the back. really looked kind of scary...

ok... think that's all for the Class BBQ. haha... actually there are more. but don't want to scare you all with my pictures anymore, so not putting them up... hehe...

My Schedule

2006-10-21T11:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm... this is my schedule till after A's...

20/10 (fri) is the publishing of last 5th issue of 校园笔记
21/10 (sat)
22/10 (sun) i'll need to send in my last 4th issue 校园笔记
23/10 (mon)
24/10 (tues)
25/10 (wed)
26/10 (thurs)
27/10 (fri) the publishing of the last 4th issue of 校园笔记
28/10 (sat)
29/10 (sun) send my last 3rd issue of 校园笔记
30/10 (mon)
31/10 (tues)
1/11 (wed)
2/11 (thurs) A lvls: GP paper 1 & 2
3/11 (fri) publishing of the 3rd last issue of 校园笔记
4/11 (sat)
5/11 (sun) send my last 2nd issue
6/11 (mon)
7/11 (tues) A lvls: Maths paper 1
8/11 (wed)
9/11 (thurs) A lvls: Maths paper 2
10/11 (fri) publishing of the last 2nd issue
11/11 (sat)
12/11 (sun) send in my last issue
13/11 (mon) A lvls: Physics paper 1 & 2
14/11 (tues) A lvls: Econs paper 3
15/11 (wed) A lvls: Physics paper 3, Econs paper 1 & 2 (last paper)
16/11 (thurs)
17/11 (fri) the publishing of the last issue.

i'm only left with a few issues of 校园笔记. Normally i draw them only during weekends. note that i don't need to do anything when it is published on the newspaper. my duty is only to send in the comics that i've drawn...

so what to do? it's ending, but it stretches up till my A levels end... >_<

Counting down to A Levels

2006-10-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

there is only 13 days left counting down to the first paper of A Levels - General Paper

it seems that there is still so much for me to do and so little time to do them

i've decreased the time spent on mathematics

increased my time on Econs and GP

should I continue 校园笔记?

can I cope with it?

I wonder

Busy on Friday and Saturaday. No time to study!

2006-10-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

Friday was the Achievers' Night which was held at the Singapore Polytechnic Graduation Guild. It really looks like a country club. Can't really imagine some place like that is part of a school campus. The ball room is on the 3rd floor, but the lobby is on the 2nd floor. Sounds weird right? This is just because the 1st floor is the swimming pool. If you do not understand what I mean then it's ok, it's not that important to know the leveling system.

Anyway, we had our Farewell Assembly on in the early afternoon. This assembly is an official dismissal of the J2s from school days. That is that the J2s will no longer need to sing the nation athem. We are 'free' from school from Friday onwards. However, of course, it is our study period and we'll still need to go back to school for consultations. The assembly was really fun. We had our VP singing, our teachers dancing and video clips and photos of us. Everything just nicely set a full stop to our official school days.

In the afternoon, I went home to prepare myself for the Achievers' Night. I've also went to the hair dresser to style my hair a bit for the formal occasion. Then, the CDS girls met up at Yvon's house for make-up. We are almost late even after we took a taxi down. Can you imagine how slow we are putting the make-up?

For the Night, we listened to a rather boring and supposedly inspiring talk by the GOH. After that, it' my favourite, the buffet dinner starts! The food was rather nice. Had fried rice, noodels,beef slice, bean curd vegetables, fried fillet, Japanese fried prawn,siew mai. All looked quite ok. However, the fun part about the Night is that we've managed to play the playground beside the pool. haha...

Today, i had GP mock examinations in the early morning. then after that in the evening, we had a class BBQ session.it's fun but it's really late. I've just reached home. Very tired now so didn't want to talk more. nights!

Achievers' Night

2006-10-11T20:06:00.000+08:00

Coming this friday, my school is having the Achievers' Night.

The Achievers' Night is a celebration for those who has attained an award for the school this year. And of course, my CCA is being invited to attend the celebration. In case you don't know, my CCA, the Chinese Drama Society, has emerged 2nd with a Gold with Honors award in the 9th inter-school chinese short-play drama competition earlier this year. It is held at the Singapore Polytechnic Graduation Guild 6pm with the head of CCA in the MOE, Mr Chew, as our Guest-Of-Honour. Cool right?

However, the problem comes when we are required to wear FORMAL attire.

Definition of Formal: (adj.)

1. Following or being in accord with accepted forms, conventions, or regulations
2. Executed, carried out, or done in proper or regular form
1. Characterized by strict or meticulous observation of forms; methodical
2. Stiffly ceremonious
Having the outward appearance but lacking in substance: a formal requirement that is usually ignored.

Oh God. How on Earth can I get those clothes??? In the end, I have to send an SOS to my mum. Luckily, my mum was a businesswomen, and is a working adult with the suitable clothes for THE occasion. yah, but the only hindrance is that my mum has an age that is older than me by 24 years old. Which means to say that her taste may not suit my age. It's not that she has bad taste, but it's that what suits her may not suits me. So I'm kind of worried that she will choose something that is totally off on me.

Anyway, after all the trouble of consulting both my friends and my family members, I've ended up with a black gown that goes with a brown cardigan plus a pair of high heels. hmmm, hope it's ok. all of them said it's ok so i think it's ok. (i don't have a lot of feelings towards this kind of things.) Hope the Achievers' Night will be a nice occasion. It's like a relief from my cramming. haha

Horrible Haze...

2006-10-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

the haze has been so horrible lately. think the situation is as bad as the previous haze singapore encountered. >_<

i'm down with eye irritation no matter how much eye mo is put. my throat is constantly dry and itchy even though i constantly drink my 1 litre water bottle. my spectacles are always dirty at the end of the day despite the fact that i washed it every morning.

the sad thing is that i think the haze has gone worse not solely because of greater wind blowing towards singapore from indonesia, but partly because of the mooncake festival that we've just celebrated. lantern, candles, sparkles, matchsticks etc. used almost nation wide at approximately the same time. no wonder the haze got worse.

anyway, take care of your health. especially those having examinations soon.

My Prelim Results. Totally Sucky...

2006-10-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

hey... take a look at my results... don't be too shocked...

General Paper - D7
Paper 1 - 26/50
Paper 2 - 16.5/50

Physics - B
Paper 1 - 16/30
Paper 2 - 63/90
Paper 3 - 60/110

Economics - O
Paper 1 - 17/30
Paper 2 - 20/50
>DRQ - 10/20
>CSQ - 10/30
Paper 3 - 18/75

Mathematics - A
Paper 1 - 85/100
Paper 2 - 90/100

end of report.

don't worry, i'm good. i'm ok. i'm fine. so i just put in more effort on my GP and Econs. At least i know where i went wrong this time...

yah...if i didn't blog, you should know why...

Went to SPH today

2006-10-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

"i thought you are supposed to stop going to SPH already? " my mum asked.
"it's my last meeting today." i replied.

well, can't blame my mum for asking me that question. i already have a lot of 'last' meetings. the last 中央 meeting, the last 出版 meeting, the last what ever meeting. however, they are always really the last of that meeting before my A levels. and today, it's the last CFF meeting.

there seems to be a lot of stuff to say over the meeting that made me obligated to attend. especially that today can be said as the first official CFF meeting for our new leader Pei Xuan to announce the plans of CFF next year. of course, as the new 漫画快餐 representative in 出版, i'll have to talk about the new format for 漫画达人. we will be putting 漫画达人 into 会讯. clever mentioned about the negative implications of such merger. however, end up we still went on with the plan. there is so much to discuss that i don't think we could finish everything by today. especially that we have quite a weak attendance today.

anyway, pei xuan went on to lead on the meeting. well, i felt kind of weird to be the one who don't talk and listen now. haha. maybe because i used to have to lead on the CFF team and make announcement. now, pei xuan has the responsibility, and i have now another new responsibility of a different nature but still kind of overlaps with what i used to do as a leader - to oversee the production of 漫画达人. that used to be the duty of the leader, but with me in 出版, the responsibility is now solely on me. hmmm, tough job yah?

of course, they won't allow me to just take charge of 漫画达人, being in the only 漫画快餐 member in 出版 limits me with no excuse to be on duty the whole of next year. well, that would mean i've got no chance of splitting my job with the other 出版 members. furthermore, to add on to my burden, i was allocated the job of planning the training sessions of the whole of 通讯员. yah, this is partly because i can't participate and oversee the quality of the production of the 会讯. so sad to say, the rest of the job will lies on me.

anyway, everything will start officially after my A levels. so, after announcing the stuff today, i'll be on hibernation. think i'll be damn active on SPH after my A's.

hmmm, for now, i can only say to myself:
"加油加油加油！"

yah...

Update on This week

2006-09-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

sorry that i haven't been posting this few days... i was in a state of lachrymose caused by my preliminary results. ok, i didn't do that bad for my mathematics and physics, but my economics and GP are in total despair. ok, i haven't take back both my economics and GP, but my teachers are giving me a red light when we asked for our results.

"you all will have to come for consultation."
"don't hesitate to look for me."
"i don't see your effort."
"please don't neglect the subject."

ok, what GOOD grades do you expect from this kind of remarks? anyway, let's not talk about sad stuff when i haven't got back my results yah? miracles MAY happen... yah... maybe...

anyway, so let's talk about where i've stopped last time yah...hmmm, it's going to be a long entry this time...

Saturday:
it's forest's birthday. i'm supposed to celebrate her birthday with yvon and friends at orchard. but sad to say, i woke up SO late that i woke up at the meeting time. but anyway, i didn't join them i nthe end as i didn't want them to wait SO long for me. yah...

so, i've pushed forward the meeting with joy a.k.a poke... ok, we had fun time, we went to orchard and took neoprints. took our very own sweet time to decorate it. after that, we went to Otori to have our dinner... well, it's really enjoyable talking to joy. but i just wish she could be really joy.

Sunday:
hmmm... met up with pei xuan at orchard. she's our new leader for CFF, so i had to meet up with her to talk about the future of CFF. especially that i'm in 出版 now, i'm supposed to 'supervise' on the produciton of 漫画达人, so got to tell her about the new changes that the 出版 commitee had decided on. yah... then i went to 'shop' with her around.

Monday:
ok, i had a China trip meeting. you see, i'm going to China as a school trip after my A levels. and the briefing is in the morning. think i'll put up the details when i'm free.

after that, i went to sentosa to have a so called 'class outing'. well, end up only like 8 people attended the 'class outing'. i just biked around and played basketball. hmmm, yah, got a bit tan but think i'll be back (hopefully) to my original colour soon...

Tuesday:
i went to IMM to have lunch with my mum. she's back from hong kong trip (actually on sunday but i forgot to write it there). so she had her first day back to work today, and i went to gave her support. :)

after that, i just went home and watched 宫... ^_^

Wednesday:
ok, today is the start of school day. well, in case you are wondering, monday and tuesday are marking days. so we don't have to go school. unfortunately, today i had a serious diarrhea. ok, it's just because i drank 6 bottles of yakult yesterday (while watching 宫). went to the polyclinic to consult a doctor. since i didn't tell him that i drank SO MANY yakult, he just says i got mild food poisoning...lolz...

yah, so the whole day i just stayed at home and watch other VCDs that i've rented... hohoho...

Thurday:
today, got back my physics paper 1 and 2. well, it's only average. for physics paper 1 i got like 16/30, and paper 2 i got 63/90. so end up it's approximately a B. if i pass my paper 3, then i'll confirm get a B. ^_^

the new thurday time table is VERY SLACK. well, i went to school. reached there at about 730am. had assembly at 745am. start my physics lecture at 8am. then end my lesson at 9.30am. and my school had ended. HAHA. that's SO SLACKING right! HOWEVER, during my break, i met my economics teacher... she asked me whether i've studied and stuff... asked me to put more focus on the subject. and says that i'm definitely NOT performing... bad news???

Friday: today...
well, today i've got back both of my mathematics papers. it's fairly well done. For paper 1, i've got 85/100 and for paper 2 i've got 90/100. so it's an A for it...

ON THE OTHER HAND, i've also gotten back my economics paper 1. it's 17/30... T_T ok, you see, this just indicate that i'm going to FAIL economics!!! normally, i'll get like 25/30 for paper 1 then it'll get pulled down by my paper 2 and 3 till i almost fail. if i get on 17/30, what is there for me to pass my econs??? ok, let me die yah... let me die... i don't feel like taking my economics paper 2 and 3 back as i definitely had a bad feeling about it. think i failed...

but, like what joy said, there can be miracles. let's hope there really is...

By the way, we also had our assembly today. it's the drama and music theatre of the SAF. yes, the Singapore Arms Forces! they sang an Acappella. it's really cool! :)

well, think that's all i'm updating. didn't feel like going online this few days. but, i'll definitely put up stuff on the fridays... :) nights!

Career Test

2006-09-24T13:02:00.000+08:00

Hey, i get to know about this career test through Poke's blog...kind of cool so i went to try it... and guess what, i'm the same as Poke! lolz...

Results:
You would be very happy in a career that utilised your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to be creative, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

* Artist
* Historian
* Banker
* Novelist
* University Professor
* Photographer
* Vet
* Paralegal
* Graphic Designer
* Online Content Developer
* Webmaster
* Producer
* Managing Director
* Nutritionist
* Advertising
* Nursing

You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private.

You are very practical, and only act after thinking things through. You don't like being forced to answer quickly. You have to evaluate the situation completely. You make decisions based on what you can verify with your senses.

You like to be deeply involved in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others and protect their feelings.

You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.

You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don�t like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open.

post-prelims

2006-09-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

Welcome myself back! haha... My prelims is finally over... YEAH! :) anyway, even though i'm quite sure that i'll do badly again this time, the feeling of conviviality far exceeds the pain that i'm exepecting. so why choose to moan now? it's inevitable for the grief to come, but since it's not here yet, why choose to start it? since i can count down my happy days with just one hand, shouldn't i cherish them instead of torching myself now?

so, i'm relaxing now! i've got SOOOO many things to do before i start school on wednesday. first, i'll need to arrange a meeting with joy. i owed her both a birthday present and a meet up session. so sorry about that. but don't worry, i'll arrange that asap.

second, i'll need to get some real good rest. you see, i'm kind of tired out by examinations, so really, ample rest for me. (ok, i know i'm contradicting myself here by blogging at such late timing, but truthfully, i really want to blog this entry).

thrid, i need to draw lot's and lot's of 校园笔记! well, i'm having A levels this year. so i won't have the time to draw. so, i'll need to draw ALL of the remaining series of 校园笔记 in order to be able to cope with it. think it's just another 7 or 8 series of it and it's the end. seriously speaking, there's still a lot of things that i want to draw into the series. i haven't managed to introduce some characters into my story... T_T you see, i was most of the time worried that people are not used to my character's personality. so i didn't dared to put in new characters. furthermore, i DON'T really think i've present my characters well enough. so, after one year, i still haven't managed to introduce new characters other than the teacher... supposedly, there's this guy who likes 小田, but he got a problem of extreme shyness. haha... anyway, since it's like ending, i don't think i'll be introducing new characters. there's still so much to work with the 3 girls plus the teacher. haha...

forth, think i'll want to go for the class outing on monday. i'm rather concerned that my class had NEVER made a class outing successful before. of course, if we don't make use of the opportunity of this post-prelim break to organize one, think we won't have the chance till post-A's... haha, sound weird right? my class is kind of not enthusiastic about this kind of outings. most of them end up failed; maybe due to really POOR attendance, or even really undecided about where to go or what to do... haiz... feels like we are not close at all. yah, i've got a feeling that my classmates are not bonded at all. cliques are very obvious in my class. well, don't talk about it here.

fifth, i want to rent LOT'S and LOT'S of movies and series to watch!!! CLOG. i've written it there in chinese. kind of lazy to re-write it, so read it there yourself. if you happen to can't read chinese, you could actually use google's translation of the web page. but since it's a automated translation, please don't expect it to be an excellent translation. haha...

of, so far i could only think of so much. actually i might be doing more, like doing SPH stuff. but i feel like sleeping now (look at the time), so that's all for today... :) nights everyone...

Disappearing...

2006-09-08T14:04:00.000+08:00

I'm going to disappear for prelims from today onwards... so, pardon me for not blogging for the next two weeks... I'm feeling totally sucky now... it's 3 days towards my first paper... T_T think I'll just do my best and try to perform miracles...

to Joy: so sorry about everything. I'm too anxious about meeting you that I totally forgot about everything... T_T haiz... I know you are kind of both disappointed and upset by it. so, I've decided to let you chill for the next two weeks (at the same time I'm having prelims). Hope you don't feel that angry anymore... >_< SO SORRY!

got to go now... haiz... bye...

2006-09-04T10:55:00.000+08:00

Yo, i'm alive again today... haha... supposed to go school and study with yanni and ah pei... but some things just happened... you see, i'm supposed to meet them at 8am today in school... yah, that's damn early right... but i've managed to wake up on time! the thing is that my mum suddenly also wake up at that time... well, i'm like damn drowsy and blur, so didn't know what i was thinking at that time... i only remembered that my mum asked me to bring my sick sister to the family doctor today... as a responsible and caring sister, i said ok. and my mum said wait till my sister wakes up then she'll ask the maid to make an appointment. sounds logical, so i said ok. since i've decided to bring my sister to see the doctor, i'll just have to go school late... well, that's so sad right... so i asked my maid to wake me up after she has made the appointment...

yah... and so, i went to sleep... without messaging yanni and ah pei... T_T ok, i was blur you know... i've just woke up not long ago... my sister's appointment is at 12:30pm... so that will mean i can only reach school earliest at 1pm... haiz... that's so sad... later in the evening, i've got a 4-hour crash course to attend... it's a September holidays tuition organized by Caravan Tuition Centre... it's two hours per subject... so i went for my weakest subject, GP and Econs... haiz... it happens to be slotted together... so i've to attend 4 hours straight... T_T that's SO sad... since it starts at 5:30pm to 9:30pm, and it's at Orchard Plaza, I'll need to leave early for it as i'm not quite sure where is the place... ok, then that will mean i need to leave school today by 4pm, then that would mean i've got less than 3 hours to study in school...T_T

ok, sad things aside, lets see, i haven't talked about my meetings on saturday right? yah, last saturday, i had a 3 hours plus exco meeting which started only at 230pm... because some of them are late and what ever... anyway, the meeting was long and there's like so much for the new leaders to do... and one lucky thing is that i'm not a leader anymore, so PX and jia ming, jia you! haha... HOWEVER, my new post isn't very EASY either... as the new 出版, the first CFF member in 出版 in txy history, i've got damn important stuff to do... you see, they are reforming 会讯... that'll mean we'll need to put in long hours and many litres of brain juice to think of HOW TO IMPROVE 会讯... haiz... so how could you expect it to be short? sad to say, this year, i'm in-charged of the publishing and quality control of 漫画达人, planning and organizing the schedules for workshops for ALL TXY, including all the 鹰, 漫画快餐 and 摄影队, PLUS quality control of 摄影队's photos... yah, that will mean i'm on duty for ALL 12 months from next year onwards... T_T *sings* where is the love, the love, the love...

never mind about that, for now, i'll just need to focus on my A's and make sure i don't disappoint my family and my senior, who is the head of 出版 and also and ex-pioneer... T_T

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY A.K.A POKE!!!

2006-09-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

*sings*

Happy birthday to you

Happy birhtday to you

Happy birthday to you-u

Hap-py birth-day tooooooooooo yoooooooouuuuuuuu!!!

Yo! one years older now Poke/Joy... haha... well, due to my throat condition, couldn't sing you the song through the phone... now, i just hope that you'll just drop by my blog today... i here sincerely apologize for not being able to meet you yesterday... T_T ok, i'll see if i could call you tonight... now, i need to go out with my mum... sorry... anyway, go buy 4D! you could buy them now... lolz...

So busy with nothing

2006-09-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

long long time never blog... so i've decided to blog today... well, let me see... the last time i wrote about my illness right... ok, well, you can consider me three quarters well... i'm currently in a situation that is prone to falling ill... meaning, i'm almost well, which is as well as almost falling ill stage... so i'm considered okay already, yet still require extra care or else i'll fall ill again, very easily... well, so sad right... think most probably because i've been sleeping late and exerting too much stress on myslef... so it like both a mental and physical torment... but anyway, it's almost holidays... i could just make full use of the time to have ample rest, and of course, ample revision too... i've my prelims immediately after the holidays, so i'll have to really really work very hard for it... >_<

i'm having a SPH meeting today... yah, later starting in the early afternoon... and i feel so much like meeting Joy as it's her birthday tomorrow... BUT, i just couldn't shake off the appointment with my mum tomorrow... I understand that Joy has been under some emotional transitions and that she now don't really feel like meeting anyone... think she's going to work herslef off... but no matter what, i selfishly want to meet her... as it'll definitely be next to impossible that my mum WILL NOT curfew me after my prelims... so i seriuously wanted to meet her today after my meetings... but what hell will i know when the meetings will end... couldn't do anything to confirm the time... so let's holy pray that it will end so damn early and i'll get to meet her...

even though it seems really hard to meet her as i've got THREE meetings in a row... two of which are out of my control... first was an exco meeting where the new exco will meet up and talk about the future plans of TXY... it'll probably start at around 1pm, provided that no one is late for the meeting and we have to wait for the late-comers who are the majority... and xiao han said that it'll last about 2-3 hours, EXCLUDING what the 顾问had to say... next coming up after that is a commitee meeting, my first ever 出版 meeting... i don't know how long it'll last but i hope it'll last not more than 1 hour... then following that will be the meeting of 漫画快餐...you see, it's the meeting where i had to talk to Pei Xuan and Jia Ming, the new leaders of 漫画快餐, lead them into what to do about the future of 漫画快餐, hand over to them some admin stuff... yah, this is within my control, if I can, i'll make it a DAMN short meeting... so all in all, if by 5pm i'm still meeting 出版, then that will meet that i can't meet Joy... T_T

oh yah, it was Teacher's Day celebration on thursday (ok, it's a damn redundant sentence)... we had some performances... we are supposed to do Aces Day work out that day, but fortunately, it was raining so we didn't get the precious oppotunity to do it... HAHA... but anyways, the performances were overall average... somew were totally sucky, e.g. the Modern Dance, and some really good ones, like the second song by the band... and the rest were kind of average... the male MC was lame and stupid... ok, sometimes too stupid that it's abit funny... however, due to the bad coordination between both MCs, it turn out kind of weird... aiya, all over now... at least i survived the concert...

after the concert, my class invited all the teachers who had taught us (for both years) to have a huge strawberry cake that we have bought it from Angie's Choice... drank some light alcoholic drink, just around 6% of alcohol... i didn't know till i've drank it... but lucky everyone only had a little sip of the drink (didn't have enought to go around)... yah... think that's all... it's a very slacking day... i practically slacked through the rest of the day... well, still half sick that day you know.. haha... but the cake is DELICIOUS! yum yum！lolz...

ok, think it's a long enough entry... kind of sleepy now... hope i blog more later... nights! :)

So Sick Today

2006-08-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

today, i'm on MC... ok, i'm not having the usual diarrhoea and neither am i having fever... i'm having sore throat... and it's no normal sore throat, i'm had lost my voice... T_T cant talk today... yesterday, i still sound like man, today i sound like an ah gua... basically, i cant talk today... so i've decided to consult the doctor first...

there's of course some reasons behind my sore... it begins on Wednesday... that day, i ate a spicy dish from the Vegetarian store in my school... ok, it's actually NOT spicy for any being, but my throat is especially sensitive to spicy... and sad to say, my throat starts to ache... there's no hoarseness in my voice at all... but then, during the Sports Day in the later afternoon, I've screamed... don't get the wrong idea here, screaming occurs because i'm cheering, not because of any thing that i'm prone to see during hungry ghost festival... so all the screaming had allowed my throat's condition to worsen...

what did the most impact on my throat was the KFC that i'd ate after the event... i'm supposed to study in school, but it was kai soon's birthday... my whole class including yanni and ah pei went to Woodlands to celebrate kai soon's birthday... and the sad thing was that i couldn't go anywhere outside my neighbourhood unless it's school... yah, the curfew thing... so, i was left alone by my classmates to study in school... lucky yvon had accompanied me... but due to our hungry stomach, we've decided to eat and study at westmall... since yvon lives around my house, it's so convenient for her to meet at places near my house... ok, so we went to westmall and settled at KFC... and that's the end of my original voice...

yvon can practically hear the change in my voice from normal to man's voice... she said that she was as if talking to a man, take note: a man, not guy... so you can imagine how horrible i sound... and yeasterday, which is thursday, is a holiday for my school... you see, the holiday due to the polling election had not been given to us only until yesterday... staying at home would mean that i need to send my sister to school and find a place outside to study... so, i've decided to study at the mcdonalds at the market near my house with yvon... BUT yvon didn't allow me to buy ANYTHING from mcdonalds... yah, bascially is because of my throat... T_T ok, i really appreciated yvon for making the effort to accompany me to restrain from eating french fries... if you think that i'm the only one who will drool over mcdonalds french fries, think again...

anyway, you might be wondering why did the condition of my throat worsen when i've restricted myself from eating oily stuff? well, it's just because i've talked too much... i didn't know that i'm straining my voice box when i'm talking... like a man... so my condition got from bad to worse... and thus, today, i'm with that ah gua voice... or i can't even talk at all as my throat aches terribly when i try talking today... yesterday wasn't that bad... who knows it'll end up like this...

yvon was SO angry with me today... well, i've chose to keep the truth about my throat's condition from yvon... you see, i didn't want her to get worried... ok, joy a.k.a poke a.k.a TH, don't scold me first... i know this contradicts with what i've told you but listen to what i'm saying first... if you've noticed, i've been spending all my time with yvon during the period of the worsening of my throat... i was SO afraid that she'll feel that it's her fault for my condition toady... ok, at least if it was me in her shoes, i would feel guilty and blamed myself for not taking extra care of my friend... i don't want her to feel that way...

supposedly i'm on MC today, and i'd told her that i'm on MC as i got too lazy to go school... of course, she got abit suspicious but i reassured her that i'm fine... see, if i recover throughout the weekend, i would see yvon on monday with my throat totally recovered... in this way, i'll not get her worried about me... BUT, the thing is that i couldn't study at home... so i had to find a place to study... so, i've decided to go back to school in the afternoons to study with yanni and ah pei... haha... stupid me... the fact that yvon is also staying in school to study today had totally slipped off my mind! >_<

you could probably guessed the next part of the story... yvon got so mad when she found out that i've lied to her... T_T think she practically wants to hang me upside down and whips me so hard that i'll scream like an ah gua... some may think that i might think too much in considering that fact that yvon would blame herself for my condition, but she was so damned crossed that she says she'll never eat with me at a fast food EVER AGAIN! T_T ok, i'm sorry as a friend for lying to you... but i'm also worried as a friend for making you worried... ok, it's was all due to my stupid idiotic planning that makes you so mad at me in the end...

i know that sometimes, i tend to think too much... i'm sensitive when it comes to friends and i think a hell lot of things that sometimes it is only my imagination in the end... i don't know how to deal with a lot of things as the inner side of me is always afraid and isolated from the world... haiz... what to do... that's me...

oh yah, by the way, i'm on the firday weekly newspaper today! go check it out! it's about my clog... i didn't expect it to release my clog address... but luckily i've split my personal blog... so it won't matter much... :)

Weird Guy's Call

2006-08-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

today i've recieved another call from the Weird Guy... ok, for convenience, lets give him a nick, WG... this WG is someone that i don't know who the hell is he and where the hack he gets my number...

it all begins when i'd recieved a call from him one night, about 2 or 3 months ago... (ok, i didn't talk about it at all as i've totally forgotten about his existence till he calls me again) anway, he talks with this odd hissing sound and i don't know what the hell is he trying to say at first... and suddenly, he asked me if i offer tuition for secondary school students... of course, i did tuition jia hao before, but who the hell knows about this thing? initially, i thought WG is a concerned parent looking for tuition teachers... and i told him yes i do offer tuition... so he started asking he my name, what subject i'm teaching and which school i'm from... i thought it was kind of normal for someone looking for tuition teacher to ask about that so i just answered truthfully... (of course, i'm not so dumb to tell him my real name, i just use a fake name) anyway, i told him that i'm from PJC 先驱初院... i've tried asking him where he got my number, but he just plainly say that it's my friend... well, i didn't probe in any further (you see, i was practically thinking that maybe i can give tuition to students as part time after my A's) and he make it sound so real that he said he has a guy and a girl, both secondary three, looking for tuition teacher... then i reply saying that i can't offer tuition till next year... he said ok and hung up...

Even though through out the whole conversation i thought he was kind of weird, i kindly continued the conversation as much as i can ( i was really thinking of having backup job as a tuition teacher)... HOWEVER! the horrible thing begins... HE CALLED ME AGAIN THE FOLLOWING NIGHT! >_< the moment i picked up the phone and hear his voice, i immediately labelled him as "意图不轨"... you see, there is practically NO REASON for him to call me again regarding tuition anymore... i've already state my stand clear that i'm not offering tuition service till next year! this time, i was harsh in my tone... i practically answered him in a rude and unpleasant attidude... however, i wanted to know HOW THE HELL HE GOT MY NUMBER! so i started questioning him... basically, his hissing sound gets louder and abit unstable in his answer...

begining of dialogue:
(at first abit kind) Me: "may i know who i you?"
WG: "we've talked before"
"huh? when? when did we ever meet?" (acting blur that he has called me yesterday)
"i'm from your school, from PJC"
"huh? from my school?" (starting to believe him a little bit)
"yah, from 先锋初院"
(yah right, i'm 100% confirmed that that sucker is not from my school) "HOW did you get my number?" (sounding absolutely fierce)
"from... your friend..."
"WHICH friend?"
"erm...(silence)"
"did we EVER meet? WHEN did we meet? HOW THE HELL you know me?"
"just... that time..."
"WHICH TIME!"
"that time, you are running..."
(ABSOLUTELY NONSENSE, i've never ran outside school before) "WHEN did i RUN? which path? WHERE?"
"erm... you won't know if i say... no point saying..."
"i wouldn't KNOW if you DON'T TELL ME!"
"erm... you won't remember... that time... erm..."
"WHICH STUPID TIME WAS IT?!!!"
"erm... you won't remember... maybe you will if we meet up..."
(WHAT THE ****!!!) "WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET MY NUMBER? WHO GAVE IT TO YOU???!!!"
"erm... i can't say..."
"SAY IT! or i'll HANG UP the phone NOW!"
"i can't... i promised him/her (he uses 他) that i can't say..."
"ok, then i'll HANG UP..."(he seems to be afraid that i'll hang up...)
"wait... erm... erm... why not i ask him/her to call you?"
"ok" ( and i hang up)

you see, anybody with normal sanity will not call back right? or in fact i should expect that "my friend" to call me... basically, i've came to a conclusion that this guy is WEIRD... he didn't have any obvious motive other then disturbing me or trick me into something which i still don't know now... i've realized that i'd recieved some anonymous calls before WG calls me... i dismissed them by regarding them as wrong numbers... IF this WG made those anonymous calls, then i can conclude that the tuition request call was his successfull call... HOWEVER, the thing is i don't know WHAT HE WANTS FROM ME!!!

i think that he practically randomed a number out and it just sadly hit me... if that's the case, then he should have just tried another number if he's unsuccessful with my call (assuming that he made those anonymous calls)... so the probability that he randomed my number is low... so how did he get my number??!! if one of my friends gave it to him, then WHO THE HELL IS THAT IDIOT FRIEND??? so far, i don't think i have any friend who will do that... at least not within who i can remember... but i hereby curse that friend who gave my phone number to WG (if there is any) to fail everything that he/she does in the next five years...

the most irritating thing is that he called me again a few days after the 2nd call... and i answered to see what he's up to... and to think that he's stupid enough to act a female voice (it's a totally failed imitation) to talk to me... you see, i've saved his number in my phonebook of my handphone as "Don Ans, Weird Guy"... both his house and mobile... so if he tries contacting me via any number, i definitely know it's him... i think he thinks i'm dumb... can't blame him... i just hung up his call saying "WRONG NUMBER"... ever since, he tried calling me a few times here and there... i didn't answer ANY of his phones calls AGAIN! and i NEVER WILL EVER AGAIN! >_<

however, he called me again today... it's been some time and he's SO exasperating... lucky due to my poor memory, i totally forgot about his existence... if he didn't call me once in a while, i would NEVER HAD remembered him... (*disgusted) hmmm... he made my life vexatious again... T_T

Last Exco Meeting

2006-08-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i went to SPH again for the supposedly last exco meeting... yah, it's finally time for my to step down as a 漫画快餐 leader and let other people take my place... so today, we had our last meeting as the old exco and everyone did a reflection... i'm actually supposed to be grounded but due to the many commitments i have in SPH, i cant just leave... i know i've said alot of "this is my last time going to SPH" thing, but there are always alot of different "last times" to complete... it seems like there is always something for me to go back to do it one last time before i disappear... so you see, i've always got a valid reason to go down... :P

anyway, supposedly this is the last exco meeting that i'm attending as a 漫画快餐 leader, so you might think that i need not go down to SPH anymore right? WRONG! i have a new position in the new exco... i got into 出版... Lucky i didn't get into 活动... i personally think that i know too little 通讯员 to choose my commitee members, so i've decided to wait for another year... since i'm in 出版 this year, it'll mean that i can know more 通讯员 through this job and thus allow myself to know more 通讯员... so in future, IF next year i get nominated again as 活动, i'll definitely feel that i'm more prepared to take the job... :)

as a 出版, my duties are practically dealing with 会讯 and 漫达... so i'm in-charged to making sure of the quality of both publishes... since chinese is not my forte (english neither), i'm not in-charged of correcting the language part of 会讯, my job is rather make sure that the type setting isn't too bad... and of course, to improve the standards of 漫达... you see, i'm practically too busy to make sure of everything... my 'A' levels this year had drained all my energy... i felt so bad to not being able to bond the newbies well and to take special care of 漫达... so, everything just goes from bad to worse... T_T anyway, i pledge to give the newbies a proper workshop on 漫达 after my 'A's... >_<

oh, by the way, pei xuan replaced my position as a 漫画快餐 leader... and jia ming is the assistant... you see, the old exco commented that we have really few people to choose from to be leader... that's why pei xuan has to stick with us as a 漫画快餐 leader... or, others may consider her in other positions in the new exco... anyway, she could make it next year if she trains up new potential leaders for 漫画快餐... :) i know she can do it... she'll definitely make 漫画快餐 the BEST group next year!!! \(^o^)/ this year... probably a little too difficult to get... but never mind... it's my fault... i aid pei xuan in what ever ways i can next year and get 漫画快餐 the award! >_<

think that's all now... phew... i'm going for a talk tomorrow... there's this Master from Tibet coming here to talk about some stuf f which i'm not sure of... but my mother wanted me to accompany her... so i had to... hope it's not too boring... i might fall asleep... :P yah... so had to sleep now... GOOD NIGHT! chao...

cut my hair!!!

2006-08-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

today i went to cut my hair... well, it's getting abit too heavy so i had to layer it... but the sad part is that my reborning effects had wore off... T_T i know it's already gone some time ago, but it still make me feel kind of sad to have it gone... haiz... you see, i had quite a wavy hair... plus it is thick... VERY thick... so, i had to always layer it or it'll get too heavy... and the more i cut, the more is my reborning effect gone... T_T so my fringe starts curling on my third haircut after i reborned my hair... and this time, it's the forth time after reborn... so i think you can imagine the amount of reborned hair left on my head... and my fringe is just the sad case... the only comforting part is the back of my hair... at least some of the reborning effect is still visible...

for this cut, i had shorten it by 1 inch... actually, i wanted to cut a damn short hair... you know abit like the length of my secondary school length... at least like that felibone will recognize me easier in school... well, she kept looking for a short hair girl when she is looking for me in school... hello? i understand that you've seen me short hair for two years, but please get used to the fact that i have long hair now! >_< anyway, i didn't cut a short hair in the end as after collecting enough data (yah, i really did a survey) from my friends, i had came up with a conclusion that i look ugly in short hair! so felibone, stop saying that you are looking for a short hair me, you are practically rubbing salt on my wound...

anyway, my friends just tell me that i look better in long hair AND without spectacles... -_-''' well, can't possibly want me to wear contact lens to school... that would be SO uncomfortable... and, it will cost me a great deal to wear contact lens everyday! oh god, i'm just a poor student with little (almost insignificant) income... haiz... that's so sad... T_T anyway, i don't really care about looking better in school... it's no big deal about wearing spectacles to school and looking a little bit ugly... it's better that i look abit uglier so there's no weird weird people coming close to me... but i just didn't like my hair waving like nobody's business... >_< it's not just because of the beauty factor, it's also convenience... you see, if i had hair flying all over and making it SO DAMN difficult to tie, it's SO irritating... though i said i find it ok to look ugly in school, but my life do not only consist school! (ok, for the time being, maybe my life indeed ONLY consist of school) i can don't wear spectacles when i'm out of school, but i can't change my hairstyle whenever i like! so that's why i'm so concerned about my hair...

however, what to do? you can't possibly ask me to go reborn my hair again?? that would be madness... with my "GREAT" ability to take care of my reborned hair, i would be wise for me to wait till i stop school then i reborn my hair again... besides, i shouldn't damage my hair too much through multiple reborning... that will make my hair condition worse... so i might as well just bare with everything now till after my 'A's then i'll reborn... and that will make the effect more lasting as i do not have to tie my hair that frequent anymore! :) yeah... that will do... haha... think that's all now... sleeping soon... nights!

mcdonalds study...

2006-08-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

well, since i'm online, i might as well blog right... yah... there's nothing much to talk about... today i had my first night study of the week... you see, i've been trying so hard to do homework, and more is yet to come... haiz... why is my life so saddened lately... and due to my lack of sleep (i slept at 1pm yesterday), i wasn't really focused today... got a REAL bad headache... well, couldn't help it... anyway, today i didn't study IN school... actually i planned to study in school till 8pm plus... cause i need to send clever some comics and i wanted to head for westmall to get some stuff... need to buy eraser and facial foam... you see, i've lost my eraser... T_T how could an artist live without an eraser??? i really think that lena had taken my eraser... i remembered lending it to her on saturday... she lost hers so i lent it to her... and that was the last seen of my eraser... OH!!! mummy misses the dear eraser so much... T_T anyway, since i need to go westmall today to get stuff, i'll need to leave a little bit earlier as i didn't want to reach home late... however, yvonne wanted to go to the optician to check her eyes... well, has potential for wearing spectacles now... had one lazy eye that has got some short-sightedness... she's SO paranoid by the fact that she has to wear spectacles after having perfect eyesight for like 18 years of her life... you can imagine how depressed is she... anyway, this is her third optician... she just hoped and begged for the little hope that this optician will tell her that she still has perfect eyesight... in the end, the same result came out as expected... ok, back to the night study... yvonne wanted to go to the optician... so she suggested that we both could go together to westmall, followed by the optical shop, then go mcdonalds to study... basically, she lives near me, so we could study somewhere near OUR house together... that's a good plan cause i get to buy my stuff and study a little bit later due to the fact that i'm studying somewhere near my house... yah... so, i've decided to follow yvonne's plan... yah... so basically, today is just like this... since i'm off at like 5pm plus, i've missed the free dinner that is supposedly offered for students who stayed back for night study in school... T_T no... but, nevermind about that... i got to eat mcdonalds fries so i'm compensated in some ways... :P ok... think that's all for today... chao!

Testing... trying to link a song...

2006-08-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

yo... i'm trying something here...

JS - 杀破浪

Still alive today

2006-08-13T14:01:00.000+08:00

hey... for the whole night yesterday, i've been trying to desgin and redesign my new blog... you see, i didn't really like the original format designed by "fakeme"(see my links), so i reformated my blog till the current one here... basically, i find it quite nice to be able to format it... though i didn't know anything about html thing and i didn't know anything about the coding thing, i've managed to figure out a little bit through the way they phrase the thing, plus a lot of references from the codes of other skins... all and all, it become like this now... you can click on the 3 words down at the bottom corner right... each will change my "opening" column on the right... cool right... actually my tag should be hidden in that column, but the column seems too thin for tags... it's not that i cant resize the column, and it's not that i couldn't get tags that are of that "thin-ness", its just that if i widen the column, then it'll look too fat for the "Profile", "Links" and "Archives"... thin is nicer for the other 3 columns... furthermore, the tagbox couldn't resize the little box that writes your name and message... so it looks so damn ugly to have partial of the box chipped off and the written messages fitting nicely... so, i've decided to put it outside... haha... maybe i'll add in more links when i'm free sometime... :)

personal blog...

2006-08-13T05:22:00.000+08:00

think this will be my personal blog... i don't know how many will try using the same name as my space to try blogspot... but i think i didn't want to tell anyone about this blog... and neither do i want to link this blog from my space (cause that will be exposing my life...) well, the reason why i wanted to separate my clog with my blog is because i think i should separate them... it's like kind of weird when i told yi min today that i didn't want to force people to come see my clog... you see, i'd an interview regarding my clog today, and the interviewer is yi min... she asked me how do i go about telling people about my clog, and i said i didn't directly tell anyone about my address... to me, i think it's fate for people to be able to find my clog... (and because my name is "secret" so i need to live up to it...) i didn't like the idea that when i tell people the address, they are kind of "forced" to go to my clog cause they are my friends or anyone related to me... i know i am have weird thinking but please don't try arguing my ideas with me... since i've also written my personal life in my clog, it will mean that i'm forcing those who want to see my comic (IF there is any) to read about my personal life... well, i totally belief in fate, so i didn't want to force anybody or what... so i've decided to separate them... yah... and the other point is that i might be deciding on releasing my clog on newspaper... as it's like because of clever... he told me i need feedback... i think so too... it's like i'm kind of getting lost in drawing 校园笔记... and i really need feedback to get me back on track... yah... so maybe someday i might publish my clog address on the newspaper... wait till some day... if really, i get to publish that, i think that will contradict my answers in the interview... cause i said i didn't want to openly let anyone know about my clog! lolz... yah, so i'm deciding one that... maybe not too soon... but let's hope that i can upkeep this blog... i'm like known for not being able to upkeep blogs... lolz...